365

365 ONE: day 144…Boob Food Catcher

Day 144: May 31st, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Bullet With Butterfly Wings” by The Smashing Pumpkins

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Philosophy Poem”

Anything to Note =

Today my boobs were made for something other than boobs – they were the perfect food catchers!

Twice!

First was in the morning with a piece of crumpet when I was eating my breakfast at the office. Later it was some fish from the fish & chips I was eating that I scooped out on the street – I thought it had fallen but didn’t know for sure until we moved and left the bar and I felt something!

My big boobs and my sports bra seem to be the perfect catcher now that they are bigger!

I guess it prevents the food from falling down me and my white shirt ūüôā

That’s all I got today!

HAHA!!


365 ONE: day 143…Guilty

Day 143: May 30th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking/Strike of Show

Dance of the Day was = “New Sensation” by INXS

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog = “Gestures”

Anything to Note =

Yesterday was a crazy day!!!

I was up from 5.30am until past 1am so today I am super super tired and not feeling the greatest but have to get through balancing the drama we have with a client tenant to prevent him from being homeless when he arrives Friday, two shows and then the strike, and again its like 100 degrees outside!!

I was so busy with running to see apartments and talk with two brokers in between tech and such yesterday to deal with the drama, and getting props and such that I know I pushed myself a bit, forgetting the little one inside. Which I later felt guilty about.

I stupidly ran from getting some props back to the theatre at one point and then when I got there I felt a little pain and it made me feel so guilty. I realized I need to stop doing things like that. And now stupid me is worried – always thinking the worst of course!

But I’ve got so much going on though that I have to do – I can’t pass it off to anyone else so I just have to remember my limits, or that I even HAVE limits would be a start!

It kind of takes my breath away when thinking of everything I have to do before I hopefully leave but I need to keep the little one as my constant!


365 ONE: day 142…What Friggin’ Time Is It???!!!!

Day 142: May 29th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Tech for Show/Running Around/On Feet/Theatre Set-Up for Show

Dance of the Day was = “Kalos Se Vrika” by N Stavento

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Too Bright”

Anything to Note =

Besides the fact that I am writing this at friggin’ 6.15am!!!

Today is tech for the show tonight. I have to take the props in my car and pick up more props on the Upper West Side at 7.30am to be at the Theatre by 8am.

So alarm was set for 6.30am as I had everything prepared last night.

What time did I wake, and then not be able to go back to sleep….5.30am!!!!!!!!

WHY??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean, I am having troubles sleeping anyway, went to bed late getting things sorted out for today, but also because I just can’t seem to go to sleep early anyway, and waking up several times an hour as my “routine” these days in pregnancy….and then on top of all that I have to wake up an HOUR early!!!!

Why does that happen?? Why, when you have to get up super early do you wake before the alarm goes off??!!!

Wasn’t that why the Snooze button was invented??? To ease you to wake up?? For those that just can’t wake up when the alarm goes off?? Why couldn’t that be my scenario this morning???!!!

UGH!!

Super annoying.

And I tried so hard to just get in a comfortable position and fall back asleep – it was a lost cause.

Hence why I am writing my blog this early and did some 365 already. This is going to be a loooooooong day and I won’t be done until at least 11pm or later so have a loooooooong way to go, so I guess it’s good that I am writing this now and did some 365 already. The rest will be done along in the day.

And the best part of what lies ahead is I can’t have any coffee or the amount of coffee I would need to get by today…thanks to no caffeine while pregnant.

Woo Hoo! Let’s see how I make it through the day!!


365 ONE: day 141…To Do My “To-Do’s”

Day 141: May 28th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “The Boy Is Mine” by Brandy and Monica

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Empty”

Anything to Note =

Happy Memorial Day to those that don’t have to work and are at the beach tanning and lazing and having a good day…Boo! ūüė¶

Annoyingly my dreams last night consisted of “to-do” lists and now I can’t remember what was on there!! And I know it was important! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That’s just not fair!

The least my mind can do, since I’m not sleeping well and so having these dozing dreams, is allow me to remember them when they¬†are important! I mean, that’s also part of the reason why I am not sleeping – the fact that I have so much on my mind, ticking away, and it won’t shut off. And now I’m sitting down trying to write down and re-create all those “to-do’s” and instead just staring at a blank page next to me.

Let’s hope they make themselves present throughout the day as today is a busy day and then tomorrow is just going to be crazy super super busy as I have to be at the theatre at 8am to start tech as my show opens tomorrow night. And so I’m pretty sure some of those silent “to-do’s” have to do with tomorrow and the show! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!

I have no time to dwell on it – so will wait for those AHA moments to come to me….hopefully…at bizarre times…..please….

Speaking of my show, tomorrow is the first show and then there are two on Wednesday so if you want a chance to see and meet  Jose Rivera, and watch his NYC premiere of the workshop production of BRAINPEOPLE then you better get your tickets fast for this limited three show engagement!

The link for the tickets are:

http://www.smarttix.com/show.aspx?EID&showCode=BRA23&BundleCode&GUID=74e481b3-de86-451d-9e76-9ddd648ea4f9


365 ONE: day 140…Mind Tricks

Day 140: May 27th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Leave Me Alone” by Michael Jackson

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Peep Hole”

Anything to Note =

Do you know what I find interesting? The tricks your mind plays on you when you only see certain things, or a glimpse of something. For example while on the subway, and you only see something on a person from the corner of your eye and you assume one thing about the person standing next to you and then you later look and realize that’s totally not who you thought was there!

I saw a guy next to me who was wearing a Mets shirt and I could see in my short glimpse out of the corner of my eye that he had a belly, so I thought a middle-aged man was standing next to me who was a Mets baseball fan. I could completely picture who this middle-aged man was, or at least my mind filled in the blanks based off those few facts I had caught a glimpse of.

But then I looked around later to get out the way of the opening subway doors and I had to double take! This middle-aged Mets fan was in fact a teenager/young scrawny guy with nerdy glasses on and the Mets shirt he was wearing was huge on him so it looked like he had a belly I guess in the corner of my eye when it billowed out as the train moved.

It was weird as it was a totally different guy to who I thought I was riding next to for almost all of my journey! It threw me because it had been a comfortable fact that I knew who was next to me and then realizing my expectations were wrong took me a moment to take in.

This happens a lot to me – since I am constantly tired and that doesn’t help – and not just with people but everything, especially mis-reading things around me.

Like yesterday I was walking down the street and of course in my usual rush, this time pulling a suitcase full of props and late to rehearsal, or trying to not be late I should say, and I had not only to double take but also to stop as I got caught off guard. I thought the awning to the building ahead read:

“The Menopause”

when it actually read:

“The Millenium”

HAHA!! Not even close!!

Perhaps I need more sleep as that was two events yesterday so hmmmm….

And I found out I have to be the prompter for the show I am working on so I really need to be able to focus on the script to read out their lines when prompted!!! I can’t screw that up!


365 ONE: day 139…Who Has A Moo-Moo?

Day 139: May 26th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Give It 2 Me” by Madonna

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Tennis Match”

Anything to Note =

It’s one of those days…you have a shower and then boom you’re drenched again it’s so hot, and you haven’t even left the house yet!! I have to carry props today too of course in this heat mania! It’s the humidity that’s going to kill me – and its only May!!

Holy Crappo!!

That’s¬†part of the reason I hope to get out and have the baby in London as this will be horrendous here if I have to stay as its going to be such a hot summer at the rate it’s going! UGH! It’s going to be miserable pregnant here!!

AHHHHHH!! Please Green Card come before I can no longer fly!!!

I’m also in that in between¬†phase too where I feel like I do still need to cover the bump, which is there, because I still feel like I’m in the “unsure if she’s pregnant or just fat” area!¬†And still in denial, I know I know!

I have lots of baggy clothes so that’s¬†not the issue, although you can still see the bump, but I need to wear layers too under as in my office and in rehearsal it gets cold – so I can’t win in this dire heat!! All the baggy clothes that are the lightest for this heat are super huge too so I look even bigger, but frankly I don’t care in this heat!

It’s just too hot!!


365 ONE: day 138…Missing Cards and No Booze Criteria

Day 138: May 25th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “I Say A Little Prayer” by Dionne Warwick

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Thanks To My Sis!”

Anything to Note =

Do you know what I realized?

I am waiting for a bunch of “cards”…my Green Card, my new health insurance card, my new British Airways credit card – all with promises of arrival, all late, all missing!

Ha – just thought of another card – my mum sent me a birthday card last year that never got to me either – another card haha! Well let’s hope the other cards I’m waiting for now don’t follow that path!!

So…..

I finally got around to actually sitting down and looking at my calendar and my schedule as I had an earlier thought in an earlier blog entry about whether I had drunk any alcohol on my 365, or not.

So…..

Turns out…I HAVE NOT HAD ANY ALCOHOL ON 365!!

I can’t believe it –¬†my earlier¬†thought was true! I started 365 on January 9th with a week of detox of only fruit and veg, and then there was like three or four days, and then I found out I was pregnant!!

I looked at the calendar to see if there were anything in those three or four days but I was in rehearsals until past 10pm and busy, and nothing like a dinner or bar meeting or anything was scheduled, so it turns out I seriously have not had an ounce of booze in what now is 138 days!!

Which means now for real I need to consider this….

Do I add this officially to my 365? Do I make no alcohol the 12th criteria on my 365 Challenge? But then I would have to go all the way until January 8th, 2013!

Well, being pregnant, that would take me to September 22nd or thereabouts so that would already bring me to something like 250 days! So yeah that leaves like 100 plus days but if I am breastfeeding I am not supposed to be drinking anyway, so maybe it’s not¬†so unrealistic after all??

Or am I going to want that shot of tequila after I give birth?? Or if I stop breastfeeding before January 9th or something??

But I would have gone so far though already.

I need to think.

I won’t announce it until I think about this, or I guess I can even wait and see how I feel.

What do you guys think?


365 ONE: day137…Subconscious Can Be Mean

Day 137: May 24th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Free Falling (Radio Mix)” by South Side Crew

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Hey Stuart, You’re So Fine”

Anything to Note =

It’s always nice to bump into someone in the morning on the subway! You’d think actually that it would be ugh as I’m such a non-morning person, and grouchy, and always sooo tired. So you’d think that¬† I would prefer to be in my own world. And I normally hardly notice my surroundings or people I know anyway as I am always in my own world, or as some people say “on a mission” so just so busy that I have no time to take anything in and notice anyone!

But today I did look up and happen to see my friend. And those moments, brief moments, when saying hey and catching up actually was nice as it takes your mind off all the crap! And you also get to commiserate with them about the crap! ūüôā

Although that’s my take on it – he probably was like “Ugh. Let me get back to my Kindle” Hahaha!!

I was actually especially grouchy this morning as had dreams I got my Green Card! Soooooo mean!! Thanks Subconscious!

What a nice surprise to wake up to reality and realize that it wasn’t true. Boo ūüė¶

Actually my friend on the train who I bumped into was the perfect person to see as it fit right in line! You see, he is Turkish and married his American wife last year after being together for a long long¬†time, and he got his Green Card instantly!! So of course I dream of me getting the Green Card and then its a friggin’ dream, and THEN I bump into the one person who got his Green Card effortlessly!!

AHHHHHHHH!!

How the universe works!!


365 ONE: day 136…Multi-Tasking the Drama. CHECK!

Day 136: May 23rd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “A Hard Day’s Night” by The Beatles

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Conference Room Disappointment”

Anything to Note =

I know what you are thinking? How crazy is she? Two Beatles songs in a row!! Woah!! Wowza!! She gone crazo¬†yo!! – clearly I am after that remark!!! HAHA!! These songs both just popped up by themselves on my ipod¬†shuffle – you think I have time to choose songs????!!!! I don’t even have time to pee!!!!!!!!!!

It must be a tribute to Stuart since he is out-of-town¬†on work in Chicago until Saturday and The Beatles are his “thang” so perhaps the ether misses him?? Or I miss him?? Or my ipod misses him??

Soooooo…..

Crazy crazy crazy¬†day. Crazy crazy week, or 10 days (or YEAR…don’t get me started!!)

But yet another crazy crazy day.

What is it about being so super busy and then getting MORE stuff on top of that, all at the same time?! Huh??!!¬†When you think that it’s just not possible to get any busier and boom somehow it happens!! Things always happen at once, I know. But, this is happening a lot so somewhere there needs to be¬†a break or a “normal” day or at least “semi-normal”….whatever that means. It just can’t be crazy EVERY day, you know??

Although, it’s starting to get to that shake-my-head-with-tight-mouthed-smile place as there just is nothing else¬†I can do but that.

I was on my blackberry through-out the whole of rehearsal today. Literally. Sadly. I was on my blackberry so much that it died before 2pm!!!!!!!!!!!!! That’s how much!! Luckily, I thought about bringing my charger with me today otherwise I would have been screwed. The last two days it died at around 7pm so was do-able so I made sure to pack the charger on me today – and thank god I remembered!

And of course it’s just lucky that I am the queen of successful multi-tasking!¬†Or able to be. Or also good at sneaking me doing work while in rehearsal.

Although this is actually kind of sad and frustrating to tell you the truth, as this is supposed to be an amazing opportunity for me to be working with the one and only Jose Rivera, and I’m already splitting my understudying¬†hat with co-producing hat, and that is okay, but then to also be soooo¬†relied upon for office work is just a little sad. It is frankly¬†a little unfair. But I see no other way around it unfortunately. I feel too guilty, I have a new employee that just started and needs help, and rightly so, at the office when I am in rehearsal, and I am just better at dealing with the multi-tasking then my boss is and just know more or able to help out better, especially in the times of panic today!!!

Every day cannot be a crisis though, as literally over the last 10 days, it seems there is always something with a deadline, that’s life or death in nature or that is how it is presented, at work….

I can’t say ‘when will the drama stop’ as I thrive on drama being an actor ūüôā BUT….I have enough drama all over and around and coming out of my armpits (yup, crazy!) that the office drama on top, right now, is just…..like…..

No words really.

Just this…

SHS.AFNADFHANWKJDV AWJVBASJDKVCBADKJVA JKDVBAVCAJWVABSVA!!!

ūüôā

 


365 ONE: day 135…Snail Walk

Day 135: May 22nd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Ain’t She Sweet” by The Beatles

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Shifty Eyes”

Anything to Note =

It still amazes me that people don’t know I’m pregnant at all! As I feel HUGE!! How can they not see how HUGE I am?? Or my bump that now is there for sure?? I know I wear baggy clothes as Zoe but now I feel even those can’t hide the bump! But just today, my director and fellow actor on our lunch break in rehearsal found out, and they said they had no idea!¬† They even said I don’t look pregnant!! That’s just like WHAT??!!

It also amazes me that I can’t walk fast! I’m on a crazy schedule these days with having to go to work early, then dashing to rehearsal downtown and across town, then back to the office after, so a lot of walking (which is good to accomplish my daily 365 criteria),¬†but a lot of rushing with this time schedule….where my usual fast NYC walker Zoe would come in handy…I just can’t seem to walk anywhere near that pace!!

I am on a time restraint constantly – I am always rushing – but I can normally cut it close as I can rely on my fast walking, but now am cutting it close and just can’t seem to pick up any pace! I can feel the¬†“uncomfortableness” in my stomach which then forces me to slow down but also my calves and tendons in my legs are so tight and inflexible that they just won’t push past a certain point anyway. I need to obviously do some serious stretching and more of my foam roller exercises to ease that up a bit.

Stupid skiing injury!!!!

I had an incident when I was racing for my boarding school, my first year actually, where it was super cloudy out and we were training on the mountain, and it was just white everywhere. Anyway, hit an unseen bump and literally touched my nose on my skiis in front without my boots being released since they need to be tight in race mode, but it stretched my calf tendons to the max and never recovered properly.

Like the Michael Jackson move haha!!

If only it was that graceful!!!

I was in France and they had no clue what to do, and I did not go straight into physical therapy or anything – instead adapted and tip-toed everywhere and raced for my school as I didn’t want to let my team down. And so since then I suffer when I walk a lot – I can feel it with shoes that don’t support me well or if I walk too fast or too much, especially uphill.

I must look hilarious when I walk!

I am working so hard – sweating and pushing forward with my upper body when the rest of me won’t follow, with my¬†big heavy backpack on! I must look like a¬†hunchback bent over, going on what feels like a snail’s pace!