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365 ONE: day137…Subconscious Can Be Mean

Day 137: May 24th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Free Falling (Radio Mix)” by South Side Crew

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Hey Stuart, You’re So Fine”

Anything to Note =

It’s always nice to bump into someone in the morning on the subway! You’d think actually that it would be ugh as I’m such a non-morning person, and grouchy, and always sooo tired. So you’d think that  I would prefer to be in my own world. And I normally hardly notice my surroundings or people I know anyway as I am always in my own world, or as some people say “on a mission” so just so busy that I have no time to take anything in and notice anyone!

But today I did look up and happen to see my friend. And those moments, brief moments, when saying hey and catching up actually was nice as it takes your mind off all the crap! And you also get to commiserate with them about the crap! 🙂

Although that’s my take on it – he probably was like “Ugh. Let me get back to my Kindle” Hahaha!!

I was actually especially grouchy this morning as had dreams I got my Green Card! Soooooo mean!! Thanks Subconscious!

What a nice surprise to wake up to reality and realize that it wasn’t true. Boo 😦

Actually my friend on the train who I bumped into was the perfect person to see as it fit right in line! You see, he is Turkish and married his American wife last year after being together for a long long time, and he got his Green Card instantly!! So of course I dream of me getting the Green Card and then its a friggin’ dream, and THEN I bump into the one person who got his Green Card effortlessly!!

AHHHHHHHH!!

How the universe works!!


365 ONE: day 136…Multi-Tasking the Drama. CHECK!

Day 136: May 23rd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “A Hard Day’s Night” by The Beatles

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Conference Room Disappointment”

Anything to Note =

I know what you are thinking? How crazy is she? Two Beatles songs in a row!! Woah!! Wowza!! She gone crazo yo!! – clearly I am after that remark!!! HAHA!! These songs both just popped up by themselves on my ipod shuffle – you think I have time to choose songs????!!!! I don’t even have time to pee!!!!!!!!!!

It must be a tribute to Stuart since he is out-of-town on work in Chicago until Saturday and The Beatles are his “thang” so perhaps the ether misses him?? Or I miss him?? Or my ipod misses him??

Soooooo…..

Crazy crazy crazy day. Crazy crazy week, or 10 days (or YEAR…don’t get me started!!)

But yet another crazy crazy day.

What is it about being so super busy and then getting MORE stuff on top of that, all at the same time?! Huh??!! When you think that it’s just not possible to get any busier and boom somehow it happens!! Things always happen at once, I know. But, this is happening a lot so somewhere there needs to be a break or a “normal” day or at least “semi-normal”….whatever that means. It just can’t be crazy EVERY day, you know??

Although, it’s starting to get to that shake-my-head-with-tight-mouthed-smile place as there just is nothing else I can do but that.

I was on my blackberry through-out the whole of rehearsal today. Literally. Sadly. I was on my blackberry so much that it died before 2pm!!!!!!!!!!!!! That’s how much!! Luckily, I thought about bringing my charger with me today otherwise I would have been screwed. The last two days it died at around 7pm so was do-able so I made sure to pack the charger on me today – and thank god I remembered!

And of course it’s just lucky that I am the queen of successful multi-tasking! Or able to be. Or also good at sneaking me doing work while in rehearsal.

Although this is actually kind of sad and frustrating to tell you the truth, as this is supposed to be an amazing opportunity for me to be working with the one and only Jose Rivera, and I’m already splitting my understudying hat with co-producing hat, and that is okay, but then to also be soooo relied upon for office work is just a little sad. It is frankly a little unfair. But I see no other way around it unfortunately. I feel too guilty, I have a new employee that just started and needs help, and rightly so, at the office when I am in rehearsal, and I am just better at dealing with the multi-tasking then my boss is and just know more or able to help out better, especially in the times of panic today!!!

Every day cannot be a crisis though, as literally over the last 10 days, it seems there is always something with a deadline, that’s life or death in nature or that is how it is presented, at work….

I can’t say ‘when will the drama stop’ as I thrive on drama being an actor 🙂 BUT….I have enough drama all over and around and coming out of my armpits (yup, crazy!) that the office drama on top, right now, is just…..like…..

No words really.

Just this…

SHS.AFNADFHANWKJDV AWJVBASJDKVCBADKJVA JKDVBAVCAJWVABSVA!!!

🙂

 


365 ONE: day 135…Snail Walk

Day 135: May 22nd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Ain’t She Sweet” by The Beatles

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Shifty Eyes”

Anything to Note =

It still amazes me that people don’t know I’m pregnant at all! As I feel HUGE!! How can they not see how HUGE I am?? Or my bump that now is there for sure?? I know I wear baggy clothes as Zoe but now I feel even those can’t hide the bump! But just today, my director and fellow actor on our lunch break in rehearsal found out, and they said they had no idea!  They even said I don’t look pregnant!! That’s just like WHAT??!!

It also amazes me that I can’t walk fast! I’m on a crazy schedule these days with having to go to work early, then dashing to rehearsal downtown and across town, then back to the office after, so a lot of walking (which is good to accomplish my daily 365 criteria), but a lot of rushing with this time schedule….where my usual fast NYC walker Zoe would come in handy…I just can’t seem to walk anywhere near that pace!!

I am on a time restraint constantly – I am always rushing – but I can normally cut it close as I can rely on my fast walking, but now am cutting it close and just can’t seem to pick up any pace! I can feel the “uncomfortableness” in my stomach which then forces me to slow down but also my calves and tendons in my legs are so tight and inflexible that they just won’t push past a certain point anyway. I need to obviously do some serious stretching and more of my foam roller exercises to ease that up a bit.

Stupid skiing injury!!!!

I had an incident when I was racing for my boarding school, my first year actually, where it was super cloudy out and we were training on the mountain, and it was just white everywhere. Anyway, hit an unseen bump and literally touched my nose on my skiis in front without my boots being released since they need to be tight in race mode, but it stretched my calf tendons to the max and never recovered properly.

Like the Michael Jackson move haha!!

If only it was that graceful!!!

I was in France and they had no clue what to do, and I did not go straight into physical therapy or anything – instead adapted and tip-toed everywhere and raced for my school as I didn’t want to let my team down. And so since then I suffer when I walk a lot – I can feel it with shoes that don’t support me well or if I walk too fast or too much, especially uphill.

I must look hilarious when I walk!

I am working so hard – sweating and pushing forward with my upper body when the rest of me won’t follow, with my big heavy backpack on! I must look like a hunchback bent over, going on what feels like a snail’s pace!

 


365 ONE: day 134…Bad. BAd. BAD.

Day 134: May 21st, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Hot Shot” by Shaggy

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Keep Calm, Carry On”

Anything to Note =

Bad. Bad. Bad Day.

Want to know why? Sure you do haha! Too tired to even write so you’re getting some good ol’ bullet points 🙂

– Slept late after fundraiser last night.

– Woke at 4am and could not sleep past then.

– Pouring out so got DRENCHED to the bone. My feet were literally swimming in pools of water. All day. Thought by taking them off at rehearsal it would perhaps enable them to dry quicker off my feet, but it didn’t work. Funny that it was warmer barefoot on the cold floor then in the soaking wet socks.

– 8.30am start at the office as had to go in to train our new employee, or at least go over some things with her before rehearsal.

– Had to help the other co-producer move props in the pouring rain on way to rehearsal, and of course as we wanted to move things outside it started pouding rain pellets!

– Opened my supposed waterproof Northface backpack and it was DRENCHED. Including important documents and receipts and paperwork.

– Had to be on my blackberry constantly through the entire of rehearsal answering emails and dealing with the office annoyingly.

– Other co-producer got yelled at by production manager for 45 minutes today, which sadly reflected a little on all of us.

– One of the actresses had a meltdown in rehearsal. Drama. Tension. Hours of it.

– My understudying got cut short as the actress arrived earlier than planned so I sadly got limited time to “be on stage”.

– Heard that Stuart got pooped on by a bird! Told him though that it’s supposed to be good luck, although not sure he wanted to hear that.

– Soon after hearing about the poop, I managed to drop yellow sandwich sauce all over the white shirt I was wearing. Great.

– Got stuck on a slow train going back to work after rehearsal in front of a woman listening to her headphones, singing out loud “sing the blood of Jesus” over and over and over, with her eyes shut, while her 5-year-old daughter sat next to her just staring at her.

– Had to stay at the office until 9pm after an already long day. Could have stayed later as so much to do but wanted to get back to Stuart as he leaves for Chicago work trip tomorrow.

– Spoke to my parents on the phone where my mum reminded me that I was now responsible for two and not just me, and…I felt super guilty as, I don’t think I have always been thinking that way. Leading me to be emotional when I finally got home 😦

Meh.

Schmeh.

 


365 ONE: day 133….Fundraiser Tonight!

Day 133: May 20th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Toca’s Miracle” by Fragma

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Sleep Pillow”

Anything to Note =

My life these days is pre-occupied with my duties as a co-producer and an understudy for this Jose Rivera workshop production, keeping afloat at work with everyone gone and now for the weeks to come, getting my 365 done, and not giving birth!!! 🙂

We have the fundraiser tonight for this Jose Rivera’s workshop production of his play BRAINPEOPLE, so the co-producer in me is taking over this blog entry today and extending the invitation for you to join us…

Come out tonight at 7pm for our Roof Top Fundraiser Party celebrating Jose Rivera! You are invited to join us at The Westmont which is at 730 Columbus Avenue at 96th Street tonight. With $20 you get…

Wine

Snacks

Music

Sneak peak of BRAINPEOPLE

Meet Jose Rivera

Bid at the Live Auction

Enjoy the Gorgeous View

And….

You get to see me!!! HAHAHA!!

So you if you want to come then you have to RSVP to amandakatejoshi@hotmail.com

It’s a great opportunity to be in the same room with some great artists and we are pimping Jose Rivera out for just that 🙂 Don’t you want to meet the man behind MOTORCYCLE DIARIES?? Behind his new film ON THE ROAD?? Behind his successful run of his play at The Rattlestick, MASSACRE??

And that was me pimping him out as promised 🙂

Ok, must go to take care of props for rehearsal and collect some items for the fundraiser…I guess this lack of sleeping has some benefits with getting things done in the day 🙂

Oy Vey!


365 ONE: day 132…FOUR YEARS OF THE BURGESS!!

Day 132: May 19th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Millennium” by Robbie Williams

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Not a 4 Year Gift”

Anything to Note =

I had a super busy day yesterday and ended up leaving the office last night at 11.30pm, so in a daze this morning 😦 Hence the ridiculous video and song choice for the day!! But had to get things done as have rehearsal again today and then after Stuart and I are celebrating our FOUR YEARS Anniversary!!!!

Crazy!!

I can’t believe it’s been FOUR YEARS!!

FOUR YEARS of the Stu-Meister, the Burge, the little Stu-ie, the Stu-ster!

I guess we have to thank a few people and things that got us here today, FOUR YEARS later, married and pregnant!!

Although the exact details are a little hazy…

– At Play Productions, my theatre company = without them I would have not been performing on stage at The Atlantic where coincidentally Stuart was working that evening to light my show 🙂

– Jake’s Saloon, bar = without having the show we would not have had an after party where I and Stuart were at drinking after the show of course 🙂

– Annabella, my friend = without her stopping me at the entrance to the bar to say hello and chat as I was on my way out, I would not have heard the British accent behind me and swung around to see and meet Stuart 🙂

– Booze, all night = without that, nothing would have happened, and I would not have been at the bar in the first place, or lasted so long or wanted more and thus offered to stay on and go to the next bar with some of my theatre company players after I had finally met Stuart, who was also drunk, and clearly also up for more of it! 🙂

– Flight 151, next bar = without going here after the other bar, we may not have actually “bonded” (no idea what happened to be honest as I was wasted!) or kissed (unclear to who kissed who – we both think we made the first move….I really think it was me!)

– Late, or early morning = without it being so late we would not have waited outside the bar to get a cab – two separate cabs I may add – to take us home, although waiting is an unclear word as it seemed like we may have been still chatting or kissing for another hour or so, but I, YES ME, would not have got Stuart’s number (that’s right Bucko!!) although he claims he would have got it off me if I hadn’t (hmmmmm) and thus start the texting and “dating” (haha, not sure we “dated” or ever have really “dated”) that brought us to TODAY!!!

So we thank you all!!

But of course…

Most importantly…

Thank you Stuart Burgess.

I love you.

(blog just got sappy….nice one!)


365 ONE: day 131…Green Card Shmeh

Day 131: May 18th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “I Heard It Through The Grapevine” by Marvin Gaye

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Skyscraper Jump”

Anything to Note =

So after checking the mail every day like a frantic mad woman, a few days ago my attorney was able to check in with USCIS to inquire further about my Green Card, and the Green Card peeps told her there was still “no decision” on my file….which means what exactly?????

I don’t know.

It has technically not been the allotted 60 days they said to allow for – that would bring us to May 26th, so not sure why they told her to call back on the 15th if still nothing received – but they did say that they are BACKLOGGED.

BACKLOGGED.

Best word ever 😦

So am hoping it’s not something bad and they are just BACKLOGGED, meaning there is “no decision” because they haven’t even got to my file yet.

I’m hoping….

My attorney put a request in to ask the local Queens office, where I went to have my interview, to see if they had anything further to say, so now we have another deadline of May 31st….which will be just past the 60 days. She also told them that I was pregnant and I had a flying/travel deadline – being pregnant was in my file, but hey, who reads my file?? No one apparently Boo 😦

Anyway, she got an email today acknowledging her inquiry but they said to allow for 60 days….which sounds like they mean ANOTHER 60 days!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! That brings us to the end of June, which is cutting it very very close for me to leave. I mean, I’ve already booked July 11th not thinking that this was going to take so long since my interview was at the end of March….but I guess I can shift the dates of that flight, and the mini Greece trip I planned to go see family, before I returned to the UK and can’t fly anymore…

Because I know my Green Card is the priority, but…ugh…I really want to see my family, and have the baby over there nearer them, and simply put, I need to get out of here as I am just drowning really with not having had a break since a year ago!!

I desperately need a break.

I really need to see my parents with all the crappo-ness that sadly they have been through and are going through, and I havent been able to leave due to Green Card, then pregnancy, then schedule, and then more Green Card….I’ve been stuck! My family has had a series of bad luck after bad luck so I am hoping that I and this Green Card is not part of that, although trust our luck…

I do, I guess, need to make back-up plans, but I am so overwhelmed with everything I’m just overloaded. But I guess I sadly need to think about it…..just in case…..

So….

Yeah….

That’s on my mind! 

The play I am co-producing and understudying for is ironically called Brainpeople….which sums up exactly how I feel right now with all the voices in my head!!