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365 ONE: day 358…2013 Here We Come!

Day 358: December 31st, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = walking and bouncing and dancing

Dance of the Day was = “Locked Out of Heaven” by Bruno Mars

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “NYE”

Anything to Note =

Happy New Year everyone!!!!!

Happy 2013!!!!!!

13 is my parents lucky number – it’s their anniversary date – so it has to be a good year ahead! A lucky year….please!!!!!

I’m typing this and watching TV to the countdown to the new year and I just looked over and my dad is asleep with his head forward, and the little one is asleep on Stuart’s lap!!

Like grandson like grandfather!

They have a special bond. I think my dad reflects on where we came from and Alexaki sees where he is heading…and he looks up to his Papou with that cute little face…with awe and respect and his mouth wide open, smiling!

But for now he is asleep. They both are.

Look alive people – two more hours to go!!!

I’m the only one dancing here!! And I’m the only one not drinking!

You see, you don’t need booze to be crazy! πŸ™‚

This time last year we had a house NYE party where we drank ourselves silly, played wii dance for hours and crawled on the floor taking photos of people kissing in the kitchen haha!

A year later I have diet coke in hand, a baby on my hip, but still on the dance floor…dancing to the sound of the TV music on, counting down the hours…

Look alive people! Lets say goodbye to 2012 together!

I raise my diet coke to you all, all around the world, and wish you happy times ahead! Full of love and laughter!

And no new babies for me!!! Haha!

Poor little guy, he survived the drunkenness this time last year…so he must be a strong character!

My little cutie pie!

Happy first NYE little one πŸ™‚

You were the best Christmas present, the best 2012 present, and now the best 2013 present too!


365 ONE: day 357…Cry Baby

Day 357: December 30th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = bouncing and baby jogging

Dance of the Day was = more made up lyrics by me!

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Medicine Dupe”

Anything to Note =

Poor little munchkin had a bad night…again…or rather, it was worse last night actually as his blocked nose properly woke him up almost every hour…so he is soooo tired and just doesn’t sleep past half hour chunks 😦

It’s also quite creepy as he is sleeping sometimes with his eyes half open. When he falls asleep on my lap after feeding I think he’s looking at me so I smile but nope, he’s completely out of it! Not sure he is sleeping though – it looks like he’s zoning out or some sort of a zombie.

Speaking of that I just looked over at Stuart who is holding the “sleeping” angel and he opened his eyes to give me the half eye look! Haha! It’s as if he knew I was talking about him and his eyes!!

We clearly have mother son telepathy!

Although I was telepathically telling him to have a nice long sleep and he just woke up again crying 😦 So that didn’t work!

In these moments it’s when I feel the most helpless.

How do you help a crying little baby when he is fed so not hungry, just changed so doesn’t need a new nappy but overtired and won’t sleep and has a cold?

I think a lot of mothers would like to know the answer to that!

I say TEQUILA!!!

No?

Did I say for him??? More like for me!!!!

No?

We have daddy up walking with him and rocking him to try and stop him from crying instead, or to walk it through until the little one wears himself out.

Alexaki – I would like you to know, when you get older and read about what your mum was doing crazily on this 365 nonsense, that your daddy just laughed at you crying!!! He is soooo mean!!! He literally just laughed out loud!

I would never laugh at you crying little baby!!!! I’m your favorite parent, right???!!!! Yup, I just heard you say “Yes” in your cute little cry/talk mode! Take that Stuart!

Working on his first word…Mama!!!


365 ONE: day 356…Three Nutshells

Day 356: December 29th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = Freddie Mercury documentary Queen songs

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Mini Shakespeare”

Anything to Note =

Long night. Snotty day.

Poor little munchkin has had a cold and been sick for a while but only last night did the snot finally drop…and the poor thing couldn’t breathe 😦 Up to try and suck it out, aspirate it out…nothing really works unfortunately. Managed to clear some for him to sleep again. But it’s been a snotty day….a snotty night and a snotty day. It makes me anxious listening to him feed as it sounds like he is not able to breathe through all the grunting and snorting. And of course I was awake all night making sure he could breathe and not choke. If only I could just blow his nose!!!!

Second burger for dinner in a row, from the same burger place down the road.

My dad suggested a burger for dinner last night from Gourmet Burger Kitchen down the road, as we haven’t had one since I’ve been in London amazingly! They are also expensive and don’t include the fries, which are also expensive annoyingly. Anyway, my dad picked one up for him and my mum, and then Stuart and I went out to get ours later….to then find out today that we had to go again tonight for another burger at the same place with family friends! So we went from no burgers to two burgers in two days! If only we had known that then we wouldn’t have had a burger yesterday!

Someone please take the chocolate away.

We got a lot of chocolate…from gifts from our party, for Christmas, leftovers…we literally have a table in our living room that is piled with chocolate! And it seems to be going down…because were eating it like it’s our job! I haven’t felt well in ages yet I still manage to eat chocolate…none other than because its there and I feel bad that its there…so I’m eating it even when I’m not hungry…even when I can’t taste anything because I go in and out of being sick! I feel guilty not eating them! Strange logic!

The day in a nutshell.

A chocolate snot burger shelled nut.


365 ONE: day 355…Baby Talk

Day 355: December 28th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Me, You, Daddy Riding the Sea” made up by me

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Baby Carrier”

Anything to Note =

Today is a special day…it is my little boy’s three month birthday πŸ™‚

I can’t believe he’s three months old! Crazy!!

He decided to speak a lot today….”speak” a lot today haha!

He’s making all kinds of noises – they are so cute! Gurgling noises, with high pitched gasps, and bubbling away.

Who knew that his nickname when in my belly – Bubbles – due to the description of what his kicks felt like, and also in my forced denial, I called them Bubbles – would actually apply to him as he is a bubbler at the mouth! Although I’ve been told by the doctor that the bubbles at the mouth are a direct result of his reflux, or rather means that he has reflux 😦

Nevertheless, the bubbling add to his noises, and it’s just adorable!

He definitely wants to say something! And soon! Today he had so much to say! He was gabbling away! He is finding his voice and what it can do…so we get some funny noises! Creature noises!

He is a little creature! Especially since he still has a stuffy nose, so when he is feeding we get all sorts of grunting noises as he tries so hard to suck it all in as fast as he can! As he’s a hungry little monkey! One more month until he can eat some solids!

Just hope we can find this special formula, or an equivalent, when back in the USA. I’m sure we can find it, or something. America is amazing in dealing with special dietary issues and such so I can’t imagine it being stumped with this.

I guess we’ll see in ten days! Holy moly…am back in only ten days…strange!

Which also means that I only have ten days left of my 365!!!

Alexaki has some things to say about that, I hear…


365 ONE: day 354…breast feeding = zero

Day 354: December 27th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = Rock of Ages DVD songs

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Tummy Time”

Anything to Note =

Went to the doctors today for Alexaki…he is getting better, gaining more weight now, and so the decision was made…no more breast feeding…the special formula it is.

Formula 1. Breast feeding 0.

That’s how I like to think of it…the formula won.

Two weeks of pumping, just in case I could go back, down the drain 😦

He still misses the breast. He still goes for it. I miss not being able to give him what he wants, that closeness. I want to be as close to him as possible.

And now me and my freezer drawer full of frozen breast milk are sad. And are to be thrown out with the trash 😦

I want the best for him, which I thought was breast milk…but sadly this little boy can’t have anymore.

So I just stop then? I have only been pumping the last two weeks….so I just don’t pump anymore then? Is that it?

And let my boobies blow up to melons, and bite the bullet until I get through it and they deflate on their own?

Or do I take a pill to stop milk production?

Or do I slowly decrease with pumping? I’m only on two times a day anyway.

All a little hmmmm.

Everything is all a little hmmmm today.

Had to deal with some post January 7th issues and face some reality for when I am back in NYC…and it all got me a little frazzled.

Eleven days to go.

Very very strange.


365 ONE: day 353…Redhill

Day 353: December 26th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = squats, lunges, weird tip toe action

Dance of the Day was = One Direction songs

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Choco Mania”

Anything to Note =

We went down to Redhill today to celebrate Christmas with Stuart’s family. It was the little monkey’s first trip down.

It seems like every day there is a first for something for Alexaki πŸ™‚

It was quite a day for little A…lots of people, and lots at once. He dealt with it well. The car ride down actually put him to sleep…and then he kept asleep for a bit. We got some smiles later on, but some restlessness too. He is/was pooped.

Who am I kidding? I’m the one that is pooped.

I can barely keep my eyes open right now. Just forced myself to eat some chocolate to try to keep me awake, but it didn’t work. I know, I know…”forced” myself to eat chocolate sounds funny and unreal, but I’m still sick so have no real appetite still or desire to eat things…things just don’t taste like anything really…I’m just not in the mood to eat.

I am in the mood to sleep though.

I am in the mood for a massage.

No you know what, I would rather have a long ass sleep than anything else!

Woke with sore throat and heavy head, achy body…I have a feeling that maybe Alexandros and I are swapping this cold thing back and forth.

I need to lie down.


365 ONE: day 352…Merry Christmas!

Day 352: December 25th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!

Cardio was = cleaning up/sorting/bouncing

Dance of the Day was = “Lets Go” by Calvin Harris feat. Ne-Yo

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “First Christmas”

Anything to Note =

Merry Christmas!!!!

Merry First Christmas to my little boy!

I know he won’t remember anything but I wanted it to be special, and it was.

He got lots of presents and cards. And there was lots of smiles πŸ™‚

He wore his two Christmas outfits, and surprisingly slept a lot more today.

Actually it’s a little worrying, on the flip side, as he seemed to be very sleepy and overtired a lot today – he dozed more often today than his normal – is he catching up on the three months of lack of sleep he’s had???!!!

I think he’s teething.

It’s a bit young as he’s not even three months yet. But I read online that it can start as early as two months. I know, I know…I shouldn’t believe everything I read online…but I really think he is teething. He keeps sucking on his hands and pushing his gums…and it’s after he’s drunk a lot of milk so can’t be that hungry…essentially. It feels different to his hungry maneuvers.

Could also explain why he’s dozing more often – and also perhaps why he is not eating as much either.

I told my dad to get him some cool fridge teething rings for Christmas…so he now has those to suck on…if only he could hold them continuously in his mouth though…he’s a little young to keep hold of the object. However he has a super strong grip!

He’s got super strength! Kicking like a maniac! And started to hold his head up on his own really young. He still goes for my glasses and pulls them off. Now he’s in the hair mode. He is grabbing anything he can that is nearby.

My mum gave me a necklace with a heart on it engraved with Alexaki on one side and his date of birth on the other…it’s beautiful! I put it on and wore it all day, and Alexaki immediately grabbed a hold of it, then every time I had him in my arms…so clever! And cute! It’s like he knew that the necklace had his name on it…that it was his.

Merry Christmas my darling angel!

It was so lovely to spend his first Christmas with his Mummy and Daddy, and his Grandma Dee Dee and Papou. Our family friend cancelled for today as she was sick – we were supposed to be having Christmas lunch with her…but it was better this way.

Just us.

Just family.

Just precious.


365 ONE: day 351…Christmas Eve…Retardo!

Day 351: December 24th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Don’t You Worry Child” by Swedish House Mafia

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Muslin Hiding”

Anything to Note =

Happy Christmas Eve everyone!

I hope you are all drinking and celebrating out there! For you and for me πŸ™‚ And for little baby schmonkie!

Had a doctors appointment this morning whereby Alexaki greeted the doctor with spit up, then a loud poop, and then continuously poked his tongue out at her over and over through smiling! That’s my boy haha!! Way to chat up the ladies!!

It’s funny because when he was super little we were poking out our tongue at him as it looked like he was trying to respond back with his tongue out. But now, he’s fully poking out his tongue, and it’s a large tongue!!! And we are like – “No Alexaki, put your tongue away!”

Poor chap is probably confused now – “They are giving me mixed signals! First they clap and cheer when I try to poke my tongue out and now I’m getting told off for doing it!

I think it’s cute actually! I like the tongue.

“That’s what she said”

Wow, I’m tired!

I am tired and have sooooooo much wrapping to do! Ugh!

I tried to do some last minute shopping today, the busiest day of the year, at the largest shopping mall…sooooo many people! I had to help my dad buy a present for my mum…meaning, I had to think of some ideas and then go look for it, speak on the phone about it, then buy it for him to wrap. And the friggin line was literally around the whole store! Granted, it did go a lot quicker than it looked…but it was chaos there!

What did I expect, it’s Christmas Eve and nothing is open tomorrow. Trust my dad to leave it to the last minute! Well, and me too for a couple of things. We ran around like banshees today with the amount of errands we had to run before everything shut – it’s not like NYC where there is always something open! Nope-ity do dah!

Am I tired or what??!!

Or I could just be crazed from electrocuting myself last night! Yup. I plugged in my charger for my blackberry and stupidly was holding a bit of the metal as I inserted it into the outlet….sparks flew and a huge surge ran into my finger and up my arm. It hurt! And scared the crap out of me. It was tingling and hurt for a while after. It even made me cry. There I was trying to be quiet and not wake sleeping Alexaki in the basket next to me when the surge made me drop the charger onto the radiator with a loud bang. Little A actually didn’t wake up! He must have been super duper tired.

Stupid electricity.

I was just trying to make sure the prongs wouldn’t collapse as I plugged them in…I didn’t mean to have a retardo moment 😦

Speaking of retardo…it’s very late here so I better get a move on and finish up things as Santa is on his way!

I guess now I’ve had a baby it’s time to believe in Santa again! Or rather now become Santa.

Santa-rella!

I just realized I’ve wrapped all of Alexaki’s presents and labelled the tags already, and not one came from Santa!! I’m an idiot! Will have to maybe change the tags?? Hmmmmm.

Another sleep deprived retardo moment…notice how I’m blaming the lack of sleep haha!


365 ONE: day 350…Mummy Moment

Day 350: December 23rd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = cleaning up from party/dancing

Dance of the Day was = TV music

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Wedding Cake”

Anything to Note =

Am writing this blog and pushing my little boy with my right foot in his bouncer. He is supposed to be relaxing and essentially going to bed as its past midnight, but each time I look over at him he is smiling!

I stare at him and can’t help but smile at him but then he sees me smile and gives me a big whopper of a smile back!!

What a cutie!!

And so alert and clever that he can see me smile and reciprocate back with a smile to his mummy.

It’s a little spooky…meaning it gives me goosebumps because he’s looking right at me enough to see me smile to then smile back….

I know I shouldn’t be looking over and smiling at him because its stimulating him and preventing him from dozing to the rocking motion, but I can’t help it.

It’s something so touching and special.

It’s a real connection moment.

It’s a true mummy moment.


365 ONE: day 349…UK Party

Day 349: December 22nd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = party setup, up and down stairs, bouncing, dancing

Dance of the Day was = party music

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Party Nap”

Anything to Note =

After 3.30am here. Just sat down to pump as only managed to pump once today 😦 Was super busy with our UK reception we had tonight.

Thank you so much everyone who was able to make it out in the end. It was lovely to see you!

A few drunken confusing moments that I guess I missed being sober or I didn’t understand haha!

I managed to hold off on all alcohol even though I am just pumping and not breast feeding right now…but have so few days left before the end of 365 that even though the not drinking became a criteria and was not part of the original set of criteria due to an initial detox, then pregnancy, then breast feeding…I decided to make it one and it’s just too close to the end to not follow through.

Even though Ursus shots were going around…I was even the one who started that in giving people shots….and that is one of my favorite drinks ever…carried over all the way from Greece…I had to refuse myself.

To tell you the truth, I had no problem with it.

I don’t miss alcohol at all.

I don’t miss the bad hangovers as I get them bad….and how would I be able to take care of my little monkey like that. I got a taste of not being able to take care of the little one when I was throwing up all night from being sick…I felt so guilty and a little helpless…and he’s just too restless and not well enough yet (or old enough…he’s still so teeny, not even 3 months yet!) for me to just throw in the towel and drink my face off, and essentially abandon him. Especially as he calms down easier with me…I think he can smell me…and still goes for the boobie the poor thing.

Sometimes he just needs his mummy.

And I need to be there for him.

I know people wanted me to drink tonight and probably think I’m crazy with all the 365, but I’m doing it for Alexaki too you see. 365 aside, I think its hard for people who don’t have a baby to truly get what it feels like…how priorities shift…focus shifts…and you can still be you with an adjustment here and there, thats all. Maybe it’s being more of a grown up? I don’t know, I still feel like I’m 5 sometimes and clearly not ready for adulthood!

No booze doesn’t stop me from dancing πŸ™‚

It would never stop me from that! Now I just love to dance with my son in my arms too….as my adjustment πŸ™‚

My son! Yikes, what a phrase! Still so surreal.

We were celebrating our marriage, the birth of our son, and that it’s Christmas tonight, and I’m still in disbelief of what the last year and a bit has brought! In just over a year…..I got married and I have an almost three month old baby…what the??!!

Maybe the Greek wedding/reception/baptism next year will knock me into reality???

It’s one wedding celebration a year!

NYC done. London done. Spetses to go!