365 ONE: day 354…breast feeding = zeroPosted: December 27, 2012
Day 354: December 27th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!
Cardio was = Walking
Dance of the Day was = Rock of Ages DVD songs
Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Tummy Time”
Anything to Note =
Went to the doctors today for Alexaki…he is getting better, gaining more weight now, and so the decision was made…no more breast feeding…the special formula it is.
Formula 1. Breast feeding 0.
That’s how I like to think of it…the formula won.
Two weeks of pumping, just in case I could go back, down the drain 😦
He still misses the breast. He still goes for it. I miss not being able to give him what he wants, that closeness. I want to be as close to him as possible.
And now me and my freezer drawer full of frozen breast milk are sad. And are to be thrown out with the trash 😦
I want the best for him, which I thought was breast milk…but sadly this little boy can’t have anymore.
So I just stop then? I have only been pumping the last two weeks….so I just don’t pump anymore then? Is that it?
And let my boobies blow up to melons, and bite the bullet until I get through it and they deflate on their own?
Or do I take a pill to stop milk production?
Or do I slowly decrease with pumping? I’m only on two times a day anyway.
All a little hmmmm.
Everything is all a little hmmmm today.
Had to deal with some post January 7th issues and face some reality for when I am back in NYC…and it all got me a little frazzled.
Eleven days to go.
Very very strange.