365 ONE: day 93…not feeling too grand

Day 93: April 10th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Is This Love” by Bob Marley

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “What To Expect Dance”

Anything to Note =

I figured out why I have issues on the 7 train in the mornings going to work – heat! It’s too hot! There is no air or A/C on the 7 train and it’s boiling which is not like the other trains, or at least it doesn’t feel like the other trains. The other trains feel cooler. I am sure my association to that horrible one morning is still a factor that gets to me as I seem to be better on the 7 train when coming home, but this morning I started to feel crappo again, and then I noticed how hot I was. I was hot in the office the worst day I had nausea weeks ago. I was hot that horrible day on the train.


That’s it!

I can’t be too hot otherwise something happens to me.

If this continues on the 7 train though I might have to change my route even though that is the most convenient and quickest route to work, I felt sick again this morning and I can’t fight it every morning. Ugh.

It must have been a nausea-on-train-day today though as I felt sick again on the train going from work to Harlem to show an apartment . Although, again I felt sick later on…and by later on, I mean now while writing this. So, today something was going on. I am going to the doctor’s for my check-up tomorrow morning so will have to bring things up like this, not being able to sleep, and that weird pain I felt. I got a sharp pain in my stomach a few days ago when I bend over and it shocked me. I got really emotional later on when I got home that day. It was my first time I realized that there was something I could hurt. I just started apologizing and I got scared. I got a similar sharp pain a few days later but it was not so bad, just a glimpse, but again I got emotional.

And now I get emotional off and on since then.

Like today. When not feeling so well.

I get moments of reality. It’s scaring me.

365 ONE: day 86…broken English love!

Day 86: April 3rd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Hold That Sucker Down” by David Vendetta

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Vessela’s Loud Desk”

Anything to Note =

I still get a weird feeling every morning I ride the 7 train into work after that incident I had not so long ago…so now I have to focus myself from the last station before the tunnel until through the tunnel, while I am on my tip-toes of course! I try not to go while in peak rush hour to avoid that ever happening again if I can help it but I do have to still focus my mind each time. I refuse to let it beat me!!!! I normally do some emailing or texting or play a game or something to try to distract me and get me away from the association of that anxiety attack I had. But this morning I had something a little different…

Right behind me, or a little to my left really, was a couple, an older couple – I am crap with guessing ages, but I want to say something like late sixties maybe? Maybe even in the seventies? Or older!! Told you I was crap!! Anyway…I was trying to focus on my phone when I start to hear this couple talk. They are both speaking with poor broken English to one another and they were obviously from two very different countries, and were trying to communicate. It was cute to listen to them try to relay what they wanted to each other with the little English they both knew. Naturally I was intrigued. I kept hearing the woman say “We go Manhattan together” over and over again…

Then, it got interesting…

Suddenly I hear the woman relay that she has a husband. And the man also said he has a wife. I looked over at them directly at this point and they were all touchy feely with each other!! So hmmmmm….they were both married, to other people, and yet holding hands????!!

They then started to convince each other that they were both done with their previous husband or wife with the English they had!! Hence, they didn’t really say how or why or what but that they were “done” over and over again. With the other saying “Me too” as they stared into each other’s eyes!!

Fascinating romance helped me through the tunnel this morning!! Before I knew it we were there!! I need me some more of that around to spy and eavesdrop on to take my focus away in the mornings 🙂

One more thing to note…

As I was listening to the couple, I did a double take as there was a woman to my right who was going up and down on her tip-toes through the tunnel!! I have never seen anyone else do any tip-toe action in the tunnel on the subway – you see??!!! There are others out there!!

365 ONE: day 25…nothing special

Day 25: February 2nd, 2012: COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking from Home to Queensboro Plaza

Dance of the Day was = “Chiki Chiki” by Guzel

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog = “Subway Puffa”

Anything to Note =

Not much to note today.

I didn’t feel so good (again, I know – I need sleep…SLEEP!!!), so decided that fresh air would do me good so walked to a further stop from home to catch the transferring 7 train instead of the N to the 7 train. It’s a nice good walk but the thought of “fresh air” in NYC is just not possible! It just doesn’t feel like you’re breathing in some nice fresh country air…more like garbage, fumes, and all kinds of bleh.

I wanted…

But instead got more like…