365 ONE: day 259…The Little One will be a LIBRA

Day 259: September 23rd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking Stairs

Dance of the Day was = “When Love Takes Over (radio edit)” by David Guetta feat. Kelly Rowland

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Rain”

Anything to Note =

Horrible out today in merry and sunny (not) ol’ England!

It has been raining ALL day long!!! ALL DAY LONG!!!






Such a pleasant environment, hey!!!

It’s a perfect time to watch movies and do nothing under the covers…but I am not good at doing that when I have so much on my mind…and so much going on inside my belly!!!

The little monkey is still here with us….or rather, he is still crammed and crunched and putting a lot of pressure on me and pains but still from the inside!

However, a good friend of mine said that the little monkey should wait to come out until after the 23rd so that he would be past being on the cusp of two astrological signs…which I know nothing about! I mean, I know literally nothing about signs and what they represent, so would never consider that, but I think though that the little monkey was listening to his Auntie as he has remained from saying hello in this astrological cusp!

Astrological signs really do elude me. I feel quite out of it as everyone around me seems to really know things and take their signs seriously – or even consider someone’s signs when dating – or my favorite is when someone asks what sign you are and I would say “Taurus” and they go “Ohhhhhhhhhh!”

It appears I make sense to them after I have revealed to them what sign I am????!! What the??!! Still so foreign to me!!

I am not going to offend anyone as I know people really believe in it all…I just don’t. I mean, I don’t know enough about it….but I am a little hesitant with it all. Sorry believers!!

Do people who really believe in signs…do they plan their babies around it? Is that a real thing?

Well, as we reach the end of the 23rd of September today this therefore means no cusp now, and the little one will therefore be a Libra….is that a good thing or a bad thing? What does a Libra mean?

I guess I will have to read up 🙂


365 ONE: day 229….Baby Room

Day 229: August 24th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking/Grocery Carrying/Building Ikea Furniture/Doing Baby Room

Dance of the Day was = “Turn Me On” by David Guetta feat. Nicki Minaj

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Slippers”

Anything to Note =

It was baby room day today.

We turned the spare small room that my mum had created for the bottom flat into the baby room. Out went the single bed and in came our Ikea purchases, and last two weeks of shopping, and items my mum had from me and my brother, and what I had brought over, and gifts.

Building things and re-arranging things.

It’s not done but at the end of the day today the room looks like a little baby room! Or at least it’s coming together!! I will show photos or do my video upload when it’s completely done 🙂

It hasn’t hit me yet though. At all.

My mum asked if it had now sunk in looking at the baby room and creating it.

Nope. It’s still surreal.

But I do know that I noticed myself quite defensive and touchy and tense as I spoke and acted today. I especially noticed it towards my mum as we worked on the room. She is an interior designer so I could feel myself a bit tight-throated as I tried to express myself and make suggestions but I could feel them come out as strong and a little attacking. And I could not control it. I just noticed myself change while in work mode.

So obviously something is going on inside me with this last month to go.

Even if it doesn’t feel like anything has sunk in at all.

Oh vey.


365 ONE: day 55…a trip around Queens thanks to Google!

Day 55: March 3rd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Boom Boom Pow (David Guetta Electro Hop Remix)” by Black Eyed Peas

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Dallas BBQ Stuart”

Anything to Note =

I went to see apartments in Queens today. The first I walked to as my cardio as it was about 20 minutes speedwalking from my apartment to this Woodside apartment. But then got an email from another listing I had written to telling me the keys were with the doorman for me to look at it too today. So, I plugged in the address into my google maps on my blackberry and hopped on a bus. I got to where I was supposed to be and it was NOT where I was supposed to be! Stupid effing google maps had taken me to the wrong place, the wrong TOWN!! I was in East Elmhurst when I was supposed to be in Rego Park!!! UGH!! It normally asks more questions if there’s more than one known location or I don’t know I didn’t really check to make sure either I guess….ugh!!!!!! I trust google maps, I do. So, was in the middle of nowhere now trying to get to another friggin’ area. 

I finally figured out the correct place I had to be and found another bus not too far away that could get me there. As I was waiting for the bus a woman came up to me asking me if I was religious and if I had read and do read the bible. Clearly my answer of NO to reading the bible was the wrong answer as she then proceeded to lecture me about how wrong that is and got upset. I kept saying “No, thank you” but couldn’t go anywhere as was at the bus stop waiting for the bus!!!!

And I was frozen as thought initially I would walk to Woodside and back home after only.


THANK YOU GOOGLE MAPS!!! Oh, how I loved thee today!!!!

365 ONE: day 8 feeling GR….AP

Cardio was = Running Up and Down Flights of Stairs

Dance of the Day was = “Love is Gone (Fred Rister & Joachim Garraud Edit) by Chris Willis and David Guetta

Improvised Acting Video  I uploaded to my other blog was what I refer to as = “Fake Sleep”

Anything to Note =

Well…..passed a week so I guessed I would feel a little more settled but I just feel a little freaked out as I have so many more days to go. I feel tired and honestly a little uneasy. A little down. A little defensive. I feel like I have a lot ahead of me and I may need to have some downtime to just feel like I am in control of things and not feel like I’m being controlled. I have a lot of work, a lot of rehearsals and now a lot of daily activities to make sure happen – and I knew this would be the case, and I know that I am always busy, but ugh. I need to turn this into something that doesn’t make me feel trapped – in everything and not just this 365 Challenge – in life, work.

I have been thinking a lot about incentive and why I am doing this 365 Challenge. Yes, I am doing this for me but there’s more to it. I wanted this to originally be for something and/or someone….I originally wanted to raise funds for a charity or for my family that really needs it. And I haven’t implemented that element yet but I still want to. I just think that I need to get further on until I introduce the charitable heart to this. I know down along the line I will need some boost to keep going and I think that I just need to prove myself a bit more and get quite far, and when I hit that wall I will open it up to asking for help to keep going. I will need to think about this. Drive is important. Drive for others, to help others, to me is important.

As you have gathered, today was a little ugh. I decided as my cardio to run up and down the stairs at the office. Our office is on the 17th floor so I didn’t think that it would be so hard – and going down seemed okay but on the way back my legs were dying! I had to take breaks. I was a little disappointed that I couldn’t do better. I know I am hard on myself but I am not going to lie on this blog so the truth is I was sad. Each floor had two sets of stairs at least – a few of them had more which was odd and super irritating. I was going to say that walking the stairs up to the 17th floor could be another daily fitness thing for me to implement easily but after that it can’t be daily as it was just too hard 😦

Again, it was freezing today. Not as igloo as yesterday but the wind chill just goes through you in NYC when it’s like this. I was of course stupid enough to listen to my weather app on my blackberry and it said it was warmer and so stupid me wore less clothing and froze!! Completely under-dressed! I was an icicle. And just STUPID!

The fruit and veg ended yesterday but I had a hard time allowing myself to eat “properly” or healthy without being extreme. I had to fight off the “what if this week was only…” – the old Zoe-isms clearly tried to creep in. It took me all the way until I was at home at the end of the evening to finally add a few things non fruit and veg…but again, I am not going to lie, I don’t feel so good about it. I think I’m just a little down today so nothing will help. Not even the crap drama that is The Bachelor hahaha!

I also had a hard time being focused today. I almost missed the tip-toes in the subway tunnel on the way home. I was playing Spider on my blackberry and suddenly in the tunnel I realized we were in the tunnel already and immediately got on my tip-toes! I added extra time once out, and an additional stop after to make up for it as felt so guilty!!! That was a close one!! Can you imagine if I had failed one of the criteria and sacrificed the 365 Challenge because I simply wasn’t paying attention!! AHHHHHH!!

365 ONE: week one done and 51 to go!!!

Day 7: January 15th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I SURVIVED ONE WEEK ON MY 365 CHALLENGE….and that sounds amazing and deserving of a t-shirt…until you hear the fact there are 51 to go! HOLY COW! FIFTY-ONE! That’s a heck more hell to go through, boo 😦 Boo. And another big boo 😦 😦

Cardio today was = Speed Walking/Loom Movement Training

Dance of the Day was = “When Love Takes Over (Feat. Kelly Rowland)” by David Guetta

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog, that I to refer to as = “Push More”

Anything to Note =

Today was friggin’ FREEZING!! Why I decided to do speed walking today as part of my cardio meant I had to trek out to the far west side of Manhattan for rehearsal and back, trying to push forward with the frostbite and wind eating my face off!! I tend to walk to rehearsals for Loom on the days I have it as its way faster than taking a million trains. It’s just easier to weave and zig zag down – and I am an excellent NYC walker if I say so myself…I walk everywhere! But, my legs were completely numb today!!!

I got let out of my first rehearsal early today and had a bit of time before my other rehearsal so I decided to go to the office to do some work and also do some 365 criteria. I walked in though to someone also in the office on a sunday annoyingly so my plans had to change a little. There is a little room before you enter into the women’s bathroom that has a large full size mirror and couch and so many criteria were completed there! Including my dance of the day – which was AMAZING!! I got to do it in front of the mirror with my ipod as high it could go since no one was around and that was super super fun! I have to say that I do look like a crazy person when dancing! Like I am on some super energetic crack drug!! I also held my breath so I could hear as much of the music as possible I guess as was super out of breath when done haha!!

(Do you notice how many times I used the word “super”….something must be super wrong with me today!) 🙂

Methinks there should be an office rave in this small bathroom! How many people can you fit in the little room? Not a joke – let’s break a Guinness record and try it! Speaking of that, I should look up and see if I can get a Guinness record for any of the things I will be completing for a year…if I make it! I always wanted a record!

So….it’s been a week also of fruit and veg, and I said I would do only a week of this, and so, to keep my word, tomorrow I get to continue the criteria of eating healthy – and I am trying super hard to resist the urge to do a week of something else….in my past I have done odd things like a week of just sushi, a week of just cereal, and my favourite….a whole week of just tasti-de-lite!! I LOVED IT!!

Nope, I’m going to try to do it properly as I have 51 weeks to go so I can’t hurt my chances of not making it all the way!!

I do think I deserve a pat on the back though for making it through a whole week! Don’t I? It’s been tough and I’ve been grouchy, but I feel strong and ready to take on another week!