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365 ONE: day 217…Destination Baby

Day 217: August 12th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy” by Bette Midler

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Baby Prep”

Anything to Note =

I just spent hours….HOURS….literally trying to go online to do my 365 upload while watching the closing ceremony of the Olympics…so am irritated. The stupid wireless router downstairs where I am staying is just not working…..ahhhhhhhh!!!

So I apologize for any weird tones in this upload as am annoyed!!!!!!

Anyway…

I arrived in London late last night. Much cooler here so hopefully it will stay like that – although when I went out to do my walking and some grocery shopping earlier it was quite warm….but of course cooler than Greece!

So this is it then.

The final haul.

The final leg on the journey.

No more flying, now it’s…nesting time.

I knew I had NYC to get through until I left for London with Stuart to see his family and friends. And then I knew I had London with Stuart to go through. And while in London I knew I still had Greece ahead to see my family. And then with the extension of the Greece trip that helped stall the idea of flying back to London.

And now, it’s back to London…to have the baby!!

What the????!!!!!

That freaks me out! Now that I am here. On that final leg of the journey.

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Ahhhhhhhhhhhahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Super overwhelming!!!!

I still don’t know what is going on, despite my super uncomfortable flight from Athens to London last night – the little schmonkie was moving around a lot and I had a lot of pressure, and then nausea….not so great.

This little schmonkie is moving around a lot in general. A LOT!!!

Yeah, still in denial….but I do know that instead of going to bed last night after I arrived I went into work mode and wanted to unpack everything, and put all baby things away into the baby chest of drawers that I had left in the flat after I arrived from NYC, and set up things, and build the foldable stroller my mum had bought us, and read all the stroller instructions, and open the Moses basket and put the changing mat on top of the drawers, and put away all the clothes after folding them all and sorting them by size, and the baby bath tub, and the baby bath products, and the baby blankets, and the…..and the…..and…..

I was up until 4am doing all this!! Amid fighting tears and emotions that kept arising, then back to denial to push on and get it all done.

I eventually had to stop as my back was seizing.

I did too much as I am feeling the pain today in my feet, legs and back. I just had to do all I could for some reason…I get like that.

Maybe to get it out of the way in one go and not be overwhelmed multiple days, although I am overwhelmed every day, so hmmmmmm….

Okay, must post this before something with this Internet fails and I lose it!!


365 ONE: day 202…Olympics from the TV

Day 202: July 28th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking/Unpacking

Dance of the Day was = “Back to Life” by Soul to Soul

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Baby Name Book”

Anything to Note =

I watched the official start to the London Olympics last night until 3am!!! With the time difference it meant that the opening ceremony didn’t start here in Greece until 11pm and it lasted four hours so it was not over until 3am…..and I of course felt obligated to watch it all despite how tired I was.

I actually missed the start of it, that had Kenneth Brannaugh in it and what looked like an explanation of the pilgrimage and history or something. I was on the phone and so kept peeking in to see but I couldn’t quite figure it out.

But I only missed a little bit so then I was in it for the long haul….with my one eye open at the end, watching the 200 something countries enter with all their athletes that took ages, determined to stay awake though until the end. Nothing some late night snacks couldn’t fix!!

Of course it was supposed to be a family event but both of my parents fell asleep before the ceremony even started! We are in crazy moving and packing mode here so they are both exhausted poor things. My mum went up to wait until it started and fell asleep and my dad sat near me but was out and then kept waking up now and then but immediately dropping off again!!

It felt a little sad actually as the Olympics were going to be a family event. I worked hard to get some tickets for us all to at least be a part of it all together and now I am not sure any of us will get to see anything now live.

Granted the tickets Stuart and I got in the second round were not great – handball and hockey. But I picked those as they are events that are in the Olympic village and were cheap and were available, and so we could at least go in and see everything that you need a ticket to see. But Stuart is back in NYC so he won’t see them. And my mum and I will probably extend our flights to be in Greece a little longer than this Monday – which is when we have booked to fly back to the UK – but we have to be out of the house by tomorrow which we could not anticipate and we are not ready and we just can’t leave on Monday. So tomorrow I will have to change our flights.

Also now there’s talk of whether I should even be going while pregnant with all the crowds and the talk of security issues and that it will be hot and….I would have still liked to go though, but hmmmm….

Regardless, I do have to get back to London soon as my deadline to not fly approaches, plus I just feel, yes in denial, and not in reality, but very….what’s the word…not ready…UNPREPARED…that’s the word!!!!! Seriously. I have no clue what’s going on, but also what hospital, what doctor, what is going on with me and the NHS. Nothing!!! So I can’t extend too long.

Will have to figure out travel plans tomorrow amid the move!

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365 ONE: day 161…Bubbles

Day 161: June 17th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “White Rabbit” by Jefferson Airplane

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog = “To Do Lists”

Anything to Note =

So the poor little one in my belly is developing a nickname due to my denial!!

Every time there is a kick it feels like a bubble….and there are a lot of “bubbles”….and I announce them as bubbles still, as am avoiding reality!! Now everyone is starting to use the word Bubbles to refer to the little one! And it’s my fault!!

People keep saying:

“How is Bubbles?”

or

“Can’t wait to meet Bubbles”

My dad started referring to him as MR. Bubbles!! Which made my eyes pop out of my head! I immediately was like AHHHHH!!! I told him that “Bubbles” or even something like “Bubbalaki” (to make it Greek of course) was better than Mr. Bubbles! You see, my dad has always been in charge of coming up with the nicknames for the young’uns and now I fear that I may have backed the little one into a corner with this one!

But Bubbles just sounds soooooooo effeminate!! Doesn’t it?? I don’t know! Or as I would say = gayness!

The poor little Schmonkey!

Oooooh…sounds like as I write this that the little one may have a few crazy nicknames coming his way!!

So, names used so far have been…

Bubbles

Schmonkey

Schmonkoid

Please forgive me little one!!!


365 ONE: day 153…Bubbles are Baby KICKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 153: June 9th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Canto Di Orfeo” by Espirito

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Pregnancy Belly Dance”

Anything to Note =

I had my doctors check up appointment yesterday where we discovered a few things….

1). I indeed have gained a lot of weight as I predicted and definitely need to stop reaching for carbs even though they make me feel less nauseous 😦 Have to figure out a way to deal with that as am a heffa!!!!!

2).  Stuart got to finally see the little schmonkey on the ultrasound as he has never been able to make any of my appointments to see that – he has only heard the heartbeat – so he finally got to see how active and naughty the little one is, with his constant moving around!! We couldn’t get a face photo, only profiles as he was again misbehaving!!

3). I found out that I can actually fly later internationally than I thought with a doctor’s note, so that gives us a little more time for the green card to arrive before my absolute deadline of flying. It will mean later than the already booked July 11th if the green card doesn’t arrive by then, but now I know what I am dealing with in terms of timeframe for how late my flights can be if I have to change them. It’s so much later than I thought – granted he said it will be uncomfortable for me but I will take it if it means being able to be in the UK with family and be on the NHS. I actually thought the airlines had rules with cut off dates but the doctor said that’s not true – you just need a doctor’s note. I mean they don’t want you to give birth on the plane of course, so thats why a note is required – but it sounds like the absolute deadline is at 8 months! Anyway, good to know.

AND…..

THE BIG DISCOVERY….

OR RATHER….CONFIRMATION REALLY…

4). The “bubbles” I am feeling in my belly are KICKS!! I mean I kind of gathered that but they feel like bubbles as the baby is not big enough to kick stronger or bigger and of course I am in denial!! But, when I have a moment to lie down, usually not until late at night as so busy, I can feel and see my belly bounce from the “bubbles”!! I made Stuart put his hand on there the other day and he could feel them and said they must be kicks but I was like – no, no, they are bubbles!! I am still calling them bubbles even though the doctor thought I was crazy yesterday – in denial!!! It’s weird if I think that it’s the baby that’s inside me kicking!!! That freaks me out!!!!

So anyway, now I have to come to terms with the fact that it’s not “bubbles” or it is but they are “baby bubbles” and not gas haha! I mean, I know it’s the baby….baby steps…mama needs baby steps to come face to face with reality!! Baby steps…or baby kicks haha!

I’ll get there.

I need the little one to get bigger and give me a big kick or two to knock some sense into me!!

As I just wrote that I got a little “bubble” haha!! 🙂


365 ONE: day 139…Who Has A Moo-Moo?

Day 139: May 26th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Give It 2 Me” by Madonna

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Tennis Match”

Anything to Note =

It’s one of those days…you have a shower and then boom you’re drenched again it’s so hot, and you haven’t even left the house yet!! I have to carry props today too of course in this heat mania! It’s the humidity that’s going to kill me – and its only May!!

Holy Crappo!!

That’s part of the reason I hope to get out and have the baby in London as this will be horrendous here if I have to stay as its going to be such a hot summer at the rate it’s going! UGH! It’s going to be miserable pregnant here!!

AHHHHHH!! Please Green Card come before I can no longer fly!!!

I’m also in that in between phase too where I feel like I do still need to cover the bump, which is there, because I still feel like I’m in the “unsure if she’s pregnant or just fat” area! And still in denial, I know I know!

I have lots of baggy clothes so that’s not the issue, although you can still see the bump, but I need to wear layers too under as in my office and in rehearsal it gets cold – so I can’t win in this dire heat!! All the baggy clothes that are the lightest for this heat are super huge too so I look even bigger, but frankly I don’t care in this heat!

It’s just too hot!!


365 ONE: day 122…Blue or Pink…I NOW KNOW!!!

Day 122: May 9th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Bring Me To Life” by Evanescence

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Gender Results In!”

Anything to Note =

I had my 20 weeks scan at the hospital today. It was a check-up with all kinds of measurements but you had to inform them if you wanted to know or didn’t want to know the sex of your baby.

And I know I have brought it up along the way in my blogs, but I decided I had to know.

Stuart wanted it to be surprise, and I love surprises and also wanted that, BUT, I feel so disconnected and in denial and completely out of it with what’s going on!!! I really have no clue what’s going on! I mean, I see my belly growing, and me turning into a heffa but I still don’t believe it really. I mean, I’ve seen the sonograms and pictures of the baby from the scans, and heard the heartbeat….but I still don’t believe it’s true!! The shock has thrown me into denial or something and I hope, I just hope that when I give birth to the little schmonkoid that reality hits!! I am sure it will…hopefully…haha!! Or maybe even when I can feel it kicking and moving around as this is all CRAZY to me still!!!!!

Anyway, amidst the crazy I have been thinking that I should maybe know the sex of the baby really and for it to not be a surprise as a hope that perhaps this will also help me with reality. I kept saying to people “I think I gotta know as I don’t know what’s going on” and really have been putting every thing off by using this whole disconnection/denial thing I’m pulling here. Soooooo I knew at the 20 weeks scan I had to make a decision to whether I really did want to know or not, and…I did want to know.

And now I know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And, I still don’t believe it because it still doesn’t seem real or hit me at all! But I’m still hoping that once it sinks in it will hit me and the planning, like names for example, can perhaps jolt me into reality as I have no excuse now!!!

Sooooo….

Is it blue or pink????

Does the baby make the 7th addition to the boys or the 2nd to the girls in terms of Anastassiou grandchildren????

I was actually afraid we wouldn’t be able to tell today if the baby was again misbehaving, but we did!!

Results are in….

(insert drumroll here!!)

Well…

IT’S A BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another Anastassiou terror running around to come! AHHHHHH!!!!

I knew it – it was moving around too much and was super active AND being naughty!!! I know everyone thought it would be a girl, because there are so many boys in the family that they all wanted a girl, so I’m sorry guys but you’re getting a little boy that I will be throwing your way to look after so get ready!! 🙂

It’s dictated by Stuart’s sperm anyway – so you can blame him!!!! 🙂

Now, let’s see if this reality will help my reality!


365 ONE: day 111…Waiting and Floating…

Day 111: April 28th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking/Bar Dancing

Dance of the Day was = “Roxanne” by The Police

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Stuart The Chef”

Anything to Note =

Not much today actually.

I waited for the mail to see how it would dictate my day and weekend. And….still nothing. Still no green card 😦

So, since I was still here then I felt guilty so had to attend my “If-I-am-still-here” plans I had tentatively made in case I was. But I got to see my good friend from the UK again, and go to my friend’s birthday and see others there – so there was a silver lining to being here 🙂

It just feels weird.

You know what else feels weird? That it’s my birthday next week!!! I thought it was in two weeks or something!!!! I wasn’t supposed to be here for it so I guess I just blanked out what date it is and how that is in relation to when my birthday is.

Or it’s a part of my denial….of everything!

I like how I explained to Stuart in the cab home that I had no clue it was my birthday next week, just forgot it was coming up so soon, and Stuart said:

“You’ll only be 31 years young” – implying that the age is why I have a problem and forgot it. And I thought about it. Yeah, 31 I guess is a little ugh but…

“I think I have bigger things to worry about!” I said. Which is TRUE!!!!!!!!

SO TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OY-VEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!