365

LAST Virgin365: day three hundred and sixty-five…Jellyfish


Virgin365: day three hundred and sixty-three…Junior’s Cheesecake


Virgin365: day three hundred and twenty-two…Tequila Lip Balm


Virgin365: day thirty…Saltines Challenge (as a family)


365 ONE: day 237…Bubbles Month

Day 237: September, 1st 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Mickey and Sylvia” from Dirty Dancing

Improvise Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Peeping Tom”

Anything to Note =

Happy First Day of the Month!!

Happy September!

I can’t believe it.

As my dad said in his BBM messages this morning – September is Bubbles month!! And will bring us hopefully all luck and strength and all things good!!

Well, Mr. Bubbles, that is a lot of pressure on you down there in my belly! πŸ™‚

I hope September is a good month. And will bring all that to my family.

Wowza.

September – me oh my!

Very surreal really. September means that I have three weeks to my due date and that’s just….makes me speechless actually.

I had a tough day yesterday after those two bad pains I got…it freaked me out a little so had a tough evening. And now it’s September! That’s not going to help my freak-o-meter…it hasn’t!

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Do you know what would help??? A shot of tequila!!

Or FIFTY!!!!


365 ONE: day 234…Happy Birthday Daddy!

Day 234: August 29th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Honey Pie” by The Beatles

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Photos of Dad”

Anything to Note =

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my wonderful amazing dad!!

It is his birthday and me and my mum are in the UK and he is in Greece….which in the history of my life has never happened before. I have spent every single birthday with my father, and always made an effort to be where ever he is in the world, by his side to celebrate.

But today.

I tried so hard to find him a flight over but I failed.

I searched for days and nothing. Everything was sold out or outrageous in price! And I mean outrageous!!! Like thousands of pounds or euros – I mean even if you had lots of money it’s still not justifiable to spend such an outrageous amount of money to go just within Europe…these prices are equivalent to flying to America from Greece, or even to Australia and beyond!

This must be a combination of fuel prices, cutting back on the number of planes they have out there, that it’s August still, that the Paralympics start tonight, that people booked holidays after the Olympics ended, and pure poop against the less financially able, like us!!

Poop I say, again!!

So it’s just a little sad today as we can’t be together, and I, the travel agent in the family could not make it happen, so I feel guilty 😦

And it’s just sad as it centers around our financial crisis my family is going through and what life used to be about – just jump on a plane and go, anything for family – and now – when every penny needs to be watched or taken into consideration or justified…and I have always hated money and been money conscious but for my parents this downhill has really hurt them. And they are still just so generous and wanting to give us, give me, everything…and since I can’t fly I know my dad wanted to be here for me, with me, to give me that, and…could not.

Ugh.

I need to seriously play the lottery because I owe him the world. I hate money so much but life cannot function without it and I just wish I had it for my parents, not me. I am the eternal bargain hunter πŸ™‚ And they come first in my eyes.

I’m sorry daddy.

Happy Birthday Loon (that is our nickname for each other, between me and my dad, which I know sounds funny and weird haha, but its Loon or Loonie, or Loonaki – Greek variations of that word!!)

I have no idea how and when that came about actually haha!! But it has nothing to do with the literal English translation of a crazy person or a bird haha! Just special nicknames for each other πŸ™‚

Can you tell I am the ultimate daddy’s little girl???!!!!

My dad wants to come over for the birth of the little schmonkie so I will just have to organize a birthday celebration for my dad then…and get him some big presents to make up for him not being here with us today πŸ™‚

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365 ONE: day 225…Stress Rant

Day 225: August 20th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Brown Girl In The Ring” by Bonny M

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Stress”

Anything to Note =

Not such a good day today.

Stressed.

Emotions running high – me and my mum – with me trying to save money and trying to figure out ways to not buy certain items twice, and then both of us getting sad when I mentioned that NYC really is our home base, which implied to my mum that that was home….when really I want it to be half and half….half of our time in USA and half of our time in Europe….and she thinks I’m being unrealistic. And you know I don’t know. It made us both sad. But home is where my family is, and I want to be closer and can I not make it work as I can legally work in both USA and UK, and wanted to be transatlantic as my goal anyway, before baby was in the picture….and apparently I don’t realize how hard it is going to be, but I believe there has to be a way to make it all work….and, I don’t want to be away from family – I’ve been away since I went to boarding school at 13 which is why I am here now. And my green card was to enable me to be able to work transatlantic with acting and be more flexible and it took my 12 years to get! But I can’t leave for more than 6 months or something at a time on that and we are buying an apartment in NYC now with all our money….and….my mum says I don’t understand how money weighs into the lifestyle I want and I know it’s going to be tough but want to be able to fly my parents out to NYC to be with us too if I can, and help out with their financial crisis situation. And I’m sure the emotions within me are high also because I’m tired and pregnant and scared and…

Wow.

That was a rant.

And that’s just a taste of it!!

I could have gone on and on with what is boiling inside of me.

We’re both stressed – me and my mum – with life around us that is not so great, outside of the baby world.

And I have to be strong to keep the rest of the family up.

And now I feel I let my guard down for a second and perhaps put a crack in the perfect distracting baby world where my mum could live in quite happily for now. So on top of it all I also now feel guilty. Because I do want to be here and America is what I associate with work, and she was just so quick to jump on the sad element to America and how far away it is, and how far away I have been since the year 2000! And now will have a little baby that will also be far away from her.

And that makes me really sad.

And I don’t know what to do really. How to rectify it. How to make it better. How to prove to her and me that I will find a way to be transatlantic – for real.

I have to.


365 ONE: day 202…Olympics from the TV

Day 202: July 28th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking/Unpacking

Dance of the Day was = “Back to Life” by Soul to Soul

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Baby Name Book”

Anything to Note =

I watched the official start to the London Olympics last night until 3am!!! With the time difference it meant that the opening ceremony didn’t start here in Greece until 11pm and it lasted four hours so it was not over until 3am…..and I of course felt obligated to watch it all despite how tired I was.

I actually missed the start of it, that had Kenneth Brannaugh in it and what looked like an explanation of the pilgrimage and history or something. I was on the phone and so kept peeking in to see but I couldn’t quite figure it out.

But I only missed a little bit so then I was in it for the long haul….with my one eye open at the end, watching the 200 something countries enter with all their athletes that took ages, determined to stay awake though until the end. Nothing some late night snacks couldn’t fix!!

Of course it was supposed to be a family event but both of my parents fell asleep before the ceremony even started! We are in crazy moving and packing mode here so they are both exhausted poor things. My mum went up to wait until it started and fell asleep and my dad sat near me but was out and then kept waking up now and then but immediately dropping off again!!

It felt a little sad actually as the Olympics were going to be a family event. I worked hard to get some tickets for us all to at least be a part of it all together and now I am not sure any of us will get to see anything now live.

Granted the tickets Stuart and I got in the second round were not great – handball and hockey. But I picked those as they are events that are in the Olympic village and were cheap and were available, and so we could at least go in and see everything that you need a ticket to see. But Stuart is back in NYC so he won’t see them. And my mum and I will probably extend our flights to be in Greece a little longer than this Monday – which is when we have booked to fly back to the UK – but we have to be out of the house by tomorrow which we could not anticipate and we are not ready and we just can’t leave on Monday. So tomorrow I will have to change our flights.

Also now there’s talk of whether I should even be going while pregnant with all the crowds and the talk of security issues and that it will be hot and….I would have still liked to go though, but hmmmm….

Regardless, I do have to get back to London soon as my deadline to not fly approaches, plus I just feel, yes in denial, and not in reality, but very….what’s the word…not ready…UNPREPARED…that’s the word!!!!! Seriously. I have no clue what’s going on, but also what hospital, what doctor, what is going on with me and the NHS. Nothing!!! So I can’t extend too long.

Will have to figure out travel plans tomorrow amid the move!

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365 ONE: day 198….Farewell Until September :(

Day 198: July 24th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking and Squats

Dance of the Day was = “Sure Feels Good” by Ultrabeat vs Darren Styles

Improvised Acting Video I upload to my other blog was = “Silent Head Bang”

Anything to Note =

Today was a hard day.

I left the UK for Greece to go see my family and help them out with the hard times and moving and packing and the crappo-ness for a few days before I cannot fly again.

And I have not seen my parents since the NYC wedding as have not been able to leave the country due to my green card process….sadly even when both of my parents fell ill at different times. That has been tough and sad and so of course could not wait to see them.

But…

I also had to leave Stuart.

And I know Stuart goes back to NYC Thursday so leaving today is just two days before that but it was the cheapest flight when I booked and I had to get out here.

But…

I had to say goodbye to him at the airport this morning as I will not be seeing him until after Fashion work, which is past September 15th at least.

And…

That is so far away. It’s a little unbelievable but the emotions still set in a bit as I hugged him and kissed him bye for two months.

Two months.

That’s odd.

I did not want to leave. I did not want to go through security. I kept turning back to blow a kiss or say bye or wave. It was so hard.

So this part goes out to him….

I just want you to know Stuart that I love you.

So much.

I miss you already Stuart.

A lot.

😦

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365 ONE: day 195…Go To – Go There – Do That – Day

Day 195: July 21st, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = On My Feet Working at the Harlequin Bar

Dance of the Day was = “I’m Down” by The Beatles

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Teddy Central”

Anything to Note =

Today was just a random day, full of lots of different random things that kept me busy….

First up – had to get up as Stuart was up early to play golf with his brothers and dad, but before he left his mother made a full English breakfast…so I had to be up for that!!!!!! I could smell the bacon and goodies downstairs πŸ™‚ Nothing beats a good English breakfast!! Yummy!!

 

After that – Stuart’s mum and I went to the nail salon. We didn’t think it would be that long but got stuck behind a family getting their nails done….oddly, it was a family of young girls getting their nails done while another family waited and watched. Which was sad actually, as these girls were young and obviously this other family of girls were not allowed to have them done so they just had to watch 😦 They did ask a few times and got a little upset and stroppy when they kept being told “No”. Although it was bizarre – as these girls were super young and getting fake nails on!! It must have been for some event like a wedding or something…or I hope so as it was just weird!

 

Then off to Costa coffee – with Stuart’s mum to meet up with her special someone.

Then – heading to Stuart’s brother’s house to have a quick hello and cup of tea with the three little cute kids since Stuart’s brother was off playing golf for the day.

And then – home for a quick change and some crumpets.

Before heading to the – Harlequin to help out behind the bar for a dance show they were having in the theatre which was supposed to have 400 some odd people attend. They were understaffed and so I said I would help out. Arrived there at 6pm and instead of having time to look around and figure out whats what I was thrown in as there were already people arriving and queuing up. At first I started by helping others and then there was just too many people so had to dive in and do orders too. It was funny as I of course had to figure out the cash register and where everything was and how much everything was as well as figure out what the UK “drink slang” meant and what it was!! So as I passed Stuart’s mum or others I knew who worked there I would ask them sneakily on my way!! It’s quite organized though there so soon caught on but it was just a funny process – should have been my video upload of the day!!! If only someone could have been filming from the side!! Especially with some muck-ups like giving the wrong change, typing in the item three times instead of once on the cash register, not being able to find the correct pint glasses for the different beers! πŸ™‚