Day 203: July 29th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!
Cardio was = Moving/Packing/Walking
Dance of the Day was = “Don’t Look Any Further” by Dennis Edwards
Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Columns”
Anything to Note =
Final moving day.
It’s a sad day today.
We are leaving the old house here in Athens to a new rental house. My parents and little brother moved here while I was at boarding school in the UK and they have been here ever since. They really planned on living here for the rest of their lives. That breaks my heart. Instead they stayed here for around 15 years, and now these hard times have taken the future away from them.
My mum put so much into this house, well she always does as she is an interior designer, but so much hard work is here that we are ripping out and packing up.
I was in boarding school and then went onto college and then graduate school, and so really I left home at 13, but I still call this house home. The constant throughout my life was actually Spetses so that is really where I consider my home home, but for my little brother, he was young when he came over to Greece and he grew up in Athens, so this house is his home.
He is sadly working down in Spetses as he got a job and had to take it in these bad times with so much unemployment out here, so he is not here to say goodbye. It’s probably a good thing really that he doesn’t see it go.
I just feel sad also because I can’t help my family the way I would like to. I so wish there was something I could do to help them all. I also can’t help the way I would like physically right now either being pregnant, and that is something I keep struggling with. Both my dad and mum are not well but have been at this packing and sorting and moving for over a month and they should not be doing all this. I came over to help but I just want to pick up boxes and carry heavy items, and I can’t. I know I’m doing some things but I’m the girl who carries their own suitcase (as the phrase goes)…the stubborn one who asks for no help. The one who lifts too much, does too much, has moved like six times….and so here, in this state, I feel a bit useless 😦
Amid this chaos and crazy, hard, sad times, my dad remains the eternal optimist. Well he used to be, now he goes in and out, but when he wakes to a new day that strength has regained in his sleep still…it is amazing! Something I have always admired and wished I had. He still has it within him. It’s actually something that Stuart also has, which is one of the reasons I fell in love with him – I love that about him. They say you marry qualities of your father….it is true!! And I wanted that, being a true daddy’s girl of course!!!
In the words of my dad then…
“We must look ahead as we are the A Team!”
The A Team is our nickname for Team Anastassiou.
We even had ski shirts made once and raced as the A Team!! My mum also made us family A Team t-shirts, with each of us as an A Team hamster!!! Haha!!!!
Anyway, the A Team represents strength, courage and determination to look ahead and fight! So we must look ahead.
To a new day tomorrow.
A new place.
And hopefully a new future. Soon.
Day 198: July 24th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!
Cardio was = Walking and Squats
Dance of the Day was = “Sure Feels Good” by Ultrabeat vs Darren Styles
Improvised Acting Video I upload to my other blog was = “Silent Head Bang”
Anything to Note =
Today was a hard day.
I left the UK for Greece to go see my family and help them out with the hard times and moving and packing and the crappo-ness for a few days before I cannot fly again.
And I have not seen my parents since the NYC wedding as have not been able to leave the country due to my green card process….sadly even when both of my parents fell ill at different times. That has been tough and sad and so of course could not wait to see them.
I also had to leave Stuart.
And I know Stuart goes back to NYC Thursday so leaving today is just two days before that but it was the cheapest flight when I booked and I had to get out here.
I had to say goodbye to him at the airport this morning as I will not be seeing him until after Fashion work, which is past September 15th at least.
That is so far away. It’s a little unbelievable but the emotions still set in a bit as I hugged him and kissed him bye for two months.
I did not want to leave. I did not want to go through security. I kept turning back to blow a kiss or say bye or wave. It was so hard.
So this part goes out to him….
I just want you to know Stuart that I love you.
I miss you already Stuart.