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365 ONE: day 227…Dream Expert Out There??

Day 227: August 22nd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “The One Thing” by INXS

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Bouncer & Car Seat”

Anything to Note =

I had a super restless night last night. I mean I must have got up like 20 something times, no joke, to go to the bathroom! I mean it’s ridiculous!! So no sleep for me.

And of course with no sleep and just dozing I again had some crazy dreams! Two of which I remember glimpses of…

1). I was away tubing and on some adventure excursion or something, and left the newborn with Stuart for way too long! Especially as I was breast feeding. I mean it was something like days. And then it hit me and I was running to get home. And running and running!

And then there was…

2). There are two babies somehow and one of them is normal and the other sadly is severely deformed. He can’t open his eyes and his mouth is not formed so doesn’t open and this baby has been left, and I feel so guilty I can’t leave him, even though I have to get back to my healthy baby waiting for me in the nursery. But this baby looks just like mine and I’m running around with him, carrying him, not knowing what to do!

So…..

Any experts on what they mean???

I think I have some ideas – my anxiety is definitely weighing in on my dream life that is for sure!

I wish I could dream about normal things! Perhaps not about babies at all!! How about rabbits and flowers and sunshine hahaha! Or winning the lottery….that would be good 🙂

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365 ONE: day 143…Guilty

Day 143: May 30th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking/Strike of Show

Dance of the Day was = “New Sensation” by INXS

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog = “Gestures”

Anything to Note =

Yesterday was a crazy day!!!

I was up from 5.30am until past 1am so today I am super super tired and not feeling the greatest but have to get through balancing the drama we have with a client tenant to prevent him from being homeless when he arrives Friday, two shows and then the strike, and again its like 100 degrees outside!!

I was so busy with running to see apartments and talk with two brokers in between tech and such yesterday to deal with the drama, and getting props and such that I know I pushed myself a bit, forgetting the little one inside. Which I later felt guilty about.

I stupidly ran from getting some props back to the theatre at one point and then when I got there I felt a little pain and it made me feel so guilty. I realized I need to stop doing things like that. And now stupid me is worried – always thinking the worst of course!

But I’ve got so much going on though that I have to do – I can’t pass it off to anyone else so I just have to remember my limits, or that I even HAVE limits would be a start!

It kind of takes my breath away when thinking of everything I have to do before I hopefully leave but I need to keep the little one as my constant!