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365 ONE: day 244…Crammed In There Little Monkey?

Day 244: September 8th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “So Much Things To Say” by Bob Marley & The Wailers

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Bear in the Dark”

Anything to Note =

Was up early today. And no sleep. Sleep is getting worse….I can feel movement and I am uncomfortable in every position, and feel like I’m cramming the little monkey in any position. And then I’m awake and have to pee….lovely cycle!! Every single night!

Anyway, I had to be up early because we had someone coming in to do some work on the flat I am staying in, something that was planned a while ago for when the flat will be rented out again, but also would be useful for us, so my mum wanted it to be done before the little monkey comes.

Ah the little monkey.

Poor little monkey.

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I am at 38 weeks now which apparently means that the little monkey is at almost 20 inches and there is just no room in there. Seriously. How can that length fit in my belly???? Seriously!

It must be crammed cabins in there. Tight quarters! And the little monkey is moving around A LOT!!! He is obviously not happy. He is fighting for some room in there.

I feel bad that there is no room in there.

So, little monkey, this is for you…

Sorry little monkey that I’m not sleeping well and not letting you sleep, or schmooshing you in my positions.

I’m sorry I’m short little monkey.

I’m sorry I’m eating and making less room in there for you little monkey.

I don’t know where you a fitting right now but I sense from all your movement and pressure you are giving me, that you’re crammed. I don’t blame you little monkey and I will put up with all that for you.

And if you want to come out earlier little monkey because you need more room, I won’t blame you either.

Eeeeeeeeek!!


365 ONE: day 233…Falling Apart List

Day 233: August 28th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Mia Nyxta Ston Paradeiso” by Nikos Koyrkoylhs

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded my other blog was = “Tunes in my Head”

Anything to Note =

I tried to speed walk yesterday and again today, but failed.

I did wear my maternity belt though for the first time in a long time while I walked as I keep forgetting. So yeah, one point for me there, but, in terms of trying to speed walk, I get a minus one. I just could not do it.

Seriously.

I tried to speed walk but my tendons were just so painful. They are so tight that there was no way to keep up my pace.

Ugh.

So now I can add that to my joyful pregnant “I’m falling apart” list…

– backache
– wrist pain
– right arm elbow joint pain that I had to modify my push-ups
– I can’t and don’t sleep
– swollen feet
– hands swollen so much that I am afraid to wear both rings now

And that list goes on and on…

…but I can now add…

– painful tendons in my legs 😦

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Also…possibly also something to do with maybe Braxton Hicks contractions?? They say that you have these going on for a while but may not necessarily always feel them…I don’t know. I’ve got something going on that’s either that and/or pressure that causes pain – Weird!

There’s definitely some big shifting going on now “in my belly” (said in Austin Powers style)…soooo tired haha! But yeah, I can feel and see some stuff going on. It’s high up near my ribs and either from a head, hands or foot action. And it stays there for a while as a hard bulge! What is he doing in there???!!!

You little schmonkie you!! Thank you for my falling apart list!!


365 ONE: day 232…Tedious

Day 232: August 27th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Ksexase To” by CReal

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Keep Calm and Drink Tequila”

Anything to Note =

Tedious day.

Seriously tedious day.

Ugh.

I was up early after a restless usual no sleep night – partly I am sure to the fact that my mum and I watched The Thaw horror film late last night about a parasite that crawls into your skin – just thinking about it again gives me the shivers!! I went through bedbugs and so naturally anything about small creatures crawling over you is not the greatest way to make me feel relaxed. How could it to anyone!

Anyway, we had a workman come over early so was up early and had to be out of my room so I literally spent the whole day upstairs at the desk where I can get Internet….doing tedious things….dealing with tedious things! Literally – I was there from 10am sitting at that desk until close to 7pm!

First I spent hours looking for a flight for my dad to come over to London. It’s his birthday in two days so we’ve been searching for a flight over tomorrow for the week so we could be together and there was simply nothing! I mean, I would not give up as I really thought there had to be a way – I searched air miles, all airlines, cheap websites, combinations of planes…the only flights I could find that we’re not sold out were outrageous in price! So now we’re all disappointed. I can hear it in my dad’s voice too. I’ve never spent a birthday away from him. And I know he will be over for when the schmonkie is here and that’s not far away, but it’s just sad.

Then I had to move on to figuring out Stuart’s flight to come over for when Fashion finishes. So more searching and irritation at how expensive things are. I was however able to figure out a way to pay out less by using some of my mum’s air miles. Annoyingly I discovered that my mum’s United air miles had expired and she had lost a lot – enough for two trips to USA and back – and this happened in March when my parents were sick and of course pre-occupied and nobody checked. But there was an option for reinstatement for money so to do so and use air miles brings the price down for Stuart. A little more successful, or we’ll see, but again was not ideal.

Then had to deal with mortgage emails and a lack of understanding and miscommunication with back and forth of emails that were driving me crazy! They kept saying they didn’t have attachments when they did and not understanding what I was talking about, and all of this is from my blackberry as my work email is on there. I was trying to take care of things to keep Stuart from having to deal with it as he was busy at work today, but my blood started to boil….I was already stressed from the day so far and I just couldn’t deal with re-explaining again and again, using different tactics. I had to give up and asked Stuart to just re-send what we had sent over ten days ago on his lunch break.

I knew I needed to get out and away from the desk and soon.

Instead I tried to do as much as I could as I was already at the desk. I have to swap over planners as my current one ends in three days and I have been putting it off! I have to copy by hand all my notes and all that into the new planner – yup, I still believe in hand written planners versus on my blackberry. I fear for everything being wiped! And actually something happened to my blackberry a few weeks ago and all my photos were wiped! Which was horrible!! So I now have less faith in the technological planner than ever! But copying everything is….

Tedious.

Anyway, it got to 7pm and I just couldn’t do anymore. I needed to get up and out and some fresh air…to breathe out the stress of today.

Out for a walk around the park!!

What a day. A tedious one.

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365 ONE: day 227…Dream Expert Out There??

Day 227: August 22nd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “The One Thing” by INXS

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Bouncer & Car Seat”

Anything to Note =

I had a super restless night last night. I mean I must have got up like 20 something times, no joke, to go to the bathroom! I mean it’s ridiculous!! So no sleep for me.

And of course with no sleep and just dozing I again had some crazy dreams! Two of which I remember glimpses of…

1). I was away tubing and on some adventure excursion or something, and left the newborn with Stuart for way too long! Especially as I was breast feeding. I mean it was something like days. And then it hit me and I was running to get home. And running and running!

And then there was…

2). There are two babies somehow and one of them is normal and the other sadly is severely deformed. He can’t open his eyes and his mouth is not formed so doesn’t open and this baby has been left, and I feel so guilty I can’t leave him, even though I have to get back to my healthy baby waiting for me in the nursery. But this baby looks just like mine and I’m running around with him, carrying him, not knowing what to do!

So…..

Any experts on what they mean???

I think I have some ideas – my anxiety is definitely weighing in on my dream life that is for sure!

I wish I could dream about normal things! Perhaps not about babies at all!! How about rabbits and flowers and sunshine hahaha! Or winning the lottery….that would be good 🙂

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365 ONE: day 167…Sugar Baby

Day 167: June 23rd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Hiking/Wedding Dancing

Dance of the Day was = Wedding Dance Music

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Draw Something”

Anything to Note =

We are at Lake Placid for a wedding of a friend’s of ours – never been – lovely and gorgeous here and very European chalet-esque with its Olympic history and Olympic-ness. We will have to go to take photos and look around and the town tomorrow before we leave…and get me a shot glass of course!!

Makes me want to go back to skiing and get my “been there, done that” t-shirt at the Olympics…let’s do it!!!

I sadly could not sleep at all though in our Town and Country Motor Inn 😦 Despite the fact that it was a king size giant bed so had plenty of moving around room! And there was loud air conditioner noise which I need to sleep. And I was super tired – so all was in my favor….sad. It’s only probably going to get worse the further you are in the pregnancy and closer to the end, or so I hear…and then what about the next 18 years after that!!!!!!!!! I said that to Stuart and he looked at me funny…but its true! You have the baby years, then the toddler years, then the pre-teen years, and then the years worrying when he is out impregnating the world!!! HAHA!!

I woke up at 7am and thought about jumping in the pool outside our window but looked and it was grey, and then saw the sign that it wasn’t open until 9am, so that option was out. Boo! So then spent an hour looking up places nearby to have breakfast on the off-and-on reception of my blackberry, jealously while Stuart slept!!

We finally made a move, had some Diner food – apparently my glucose level is a little elevated – heard from my doctor yesterday, so now I have to be a little more mindful of my sugar intake…it’s funny though because if I crave anything it’s always savoury versus sweet. I will gladly take french fries over any sweet thing, any day. But the nausea has made me eat more carbs and sugar to get rid of the funny tastes…but not bad sugar which would indicate high glucose like white rice, juices and pasta – which were all examples from the doctor…so that means it must be from the chocolate or something…

It’s not very high but something to be mindful of I guess.

It did make me pay more attention at breakfast – no sugar in my tea. Bought dark chocolate and organic and low sugar snacks later, after our downpour hike. Yeah, we went on a hike – which felt like at first an intrusion on people’s property….literally! Even the website said you will feel like you are intruding on people’s property. The hike path is near the lake so at the bottom of people’s giant amazing houses – we got some curious looks! Then, it heads up and inland.

And then it rained! And then poured!! We actually had one umbrella in our bag and just huddled under it for a moment when it was really coming down, deciding which way to go, and funnily enough the others appeared on the path to our left haha! It was a good thing we went in though as when we got in the car it then started hailing!!!!!

Of course later on, it cleared! Typical.

And that brings us to now. About to go get ready for the wedding, so over and out!


365 ONE: day 145…Stuart’s Birthday Today!!!

Day 145: June 1st, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Bulletproof” by La Roux

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Underground Kid”

Anything to Note =

It’s Stuart’s Birthday today woooo hooooo!!!

We leave today for our friend’s wedding up in Vermont so had to get all this done early before our 1pm departure and deal with tenant drama, office drama, crapporama…so once again no sleep and early rise! UGH!

What I would give for sleep!!!! And Netflix!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can’t believe its June!!!!!!!!!!!!

Although last day of May was annoying – between the office drama (that’s still ongoing), to picking something to wear to this wedding tomorrow and everything looking like I ate a whole cow, to losing pregnancy clothes in the laundry that I wanted to pack with me. Schmleh!!!!

You know, really the whole of May was annoying!

Every month has been annoying!!!

Can we tell I just need a break!!!!?????!!!!

I guess the fact that I am still standing is a token of success and a miracle!!

Let’s just focus on Stuart – HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!


365 ONE: day 142…What Friggin’ Time Is It???!!!!

Day 142: May 29th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Tech for Show/Running Around/On Feet/Theatre Set-Up for Show

Dance of the Day was = “Kalos Se Vrika” by N Stavento

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Too Bright”

Anything to Note =

Besides the fact that I am writing this at friggin’ 6.15am!!!

Today is tech for the show tonight. I have to take the props in my car and pick up more props on the Upper West Side at 7.30am to be at the Theatre by 8am.

So alarm was set for 6.30am as I had everything prepared last night.

What time did I wake, and then not be able to go back to sleep….5.30am!!!!!!!!

WHY??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean, I am having troubles sleeping anyway, went to bed late getting things sorted out for today, but also because I just can’t seem to go to sleep early anyway, and waking up several times an hour as my “routine” these days in pregnancy….and then on top of all that I have to wake up an HOUR early!!!!

Why does that happen?? Why, when you have to get up super early do you wake before the alarm goes off??!!!

Wasn’t that why the Snooze button was invented??? To ease you to wake up?? For those that just can’t wake up when the alarm goes off?? Why couldn’t that be my scenario this morning???!!!

UGH!!

Super annoying.

And I tried so hard to just get in a comfortable position and fall back asleep – it was a lost cause.

Hence why I am writing my blog this early and did some 365 already. This is going to be a loooooooong day and I won’t be done until at least 11pm or later so have a loooooooong way to go, so I guess it’s good that I am writing this now and did some 365 already. The rest will be done along in the day.

And the best part of what lies ahead is I can’t have any coffee or the amount of coffee I would need to get by today…thanks to no caffeine while pregnant.

Woo Hoo! Let’s see how I make it through the day!!


365 ONE: day 115….It’s My Birffffday…Is It??!!

Day 115: May 2nd, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Xeria Psila (Remix)” by DJ Stelios M. Feat. Mixalis Xatz

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Mini Birthday Cake Celebration”

Anything to Note =

Happy 31 to ME!!

WOO HOO!!!

Although, today has sadly been an icky day and hasn’t felt at all like my birthday 😦 I had a rough bad night of no sleep so felt icky and had a headache all day I couldn’t shake so stayed at home to work from here to try to get better. Nice way to turn the good ol’ 31 – sick in bed!

I also was very emotional today. And we can put it down to no sleep and over-tired, as well as probably hormones, but I was sad and have been sad today because I was supposed to be in London celebrating today with my parents – and I was looking forward to it and they were looking forward to it – and as a result I never planned anything or thought about it really, and now the day is here. So it was a little sad.

Sad and icky – great!!

I thought maybe  just maybe I would get the greencard today as a nice birthday gift but no, that would be too lucky!

So it’s been a little “meh” today which again is sad as it really is my birthday – would have loved a day off from everything but being sick and not feeling good is not a day off annoyingly and had clients calling me and emails to respond to…so hmmmmm….will have to reward myself with a birthday day off soon then!

Stuart sadly (ah the famous word for today – and actually a famous word I use often!!) had to work today and until late, but he gave me his cute birthday card before he left home this morning – which was beautiful 🙂

And made me emotional!!

My parents said we can always celebrate my birthday together on another date…

“Like on June 2nd” my dad said…inside joke so will explain…

Ok, funny story – years ago, I think the year before I started graduate school, so must have been in 2004, on June 2nd, I was in NYC staying with my friend off and on while I looked for an apartment and had audition interviews and such so I was staying with her when I would drive up from MD, where I lived at the time. And we spent my birthday together. And my phone rings. So I pick it up and its my dad on the phone and he says:

“Happy Birthday!!”

And I say, “What?” And start laughing.

“Happy Birthday my darling. I am so sorry that I forgot but I just remembered and woke up early to tell you Happy Birthday and that we are so sorry we can’t be there with you to celebrate” my dad says with a sleepy voice, as its something like 4am in Greece, where he is calling from.

“Daddy, it’s not my birthday. It’s June 2nd. My birthday is May 2nd. And you did spend it with me in NYC. You and mummy came over for it” I say through half laughing.

Silence.

I thought he had been joking but turns out he actually was not!!

To this day we joke about that because we have no clue what happened!! And it never happened again – that one moment of, (kind of scary if you think about it), crazy! It was so weird! It was like half an hour of back and forth convincing my tired dad that it was a month late and that I had seen him on my birthday! If you ask me, I think he woke with a start from some dream that had something to do with my birthday and must have believed it and called…

So…

I guess I can celebrate my birthday again on June 2nd 🙂 Which is now the day after Stuart’s birthday! And maybe it won’t be so icky then!

June 2nd will always be my “second birthday” thanks to my dad’s mishap 🙂