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PUPPET ME 365: Walk Through the Fear 


Virgin365: day one hundred and forty-two…Purple Lightning


365 ONE: day 255…Thought The Little Monkey Was Coming at 4am

Day 255: September 19th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Sweet Little Sixteen” by The Beatles

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “4am Scare”

Anything to Note =

I had a big scare this morning.

At 4am I got up with some pains and went to the bathroom….and got stuck in there until after 7am!

I suddenly got pain and cramps and it would not go away for a couple of hours.

I tried to lie down again and make the pain stop….nope. I tried to deduce if the symptoms I was feeling were real and not symptoms of fake labour so grabbed one of the books but….nope…what I was feeling was exactly what was being described as the first stage of labour. So I almost called the maternity helpline, as I am supposed to call when the pain is regular, but I was just hesitant a bit in case it would pass…

I should have woken my mum up, or Stuart, but I didn’t because….I don’t know really…I got scared and just kept reading to make sure…and I couldn’t move from the bathroom.

But I was convinced.

I even shaved my legs to distract myself between the cramps/contractions/pains as I had been meaning to rid me of the wooly mammoth legs before I went into hospital and just haven’t.

I kept saying – this is it….and just started thinking of how I wasn’t ready….

No name…

No hospital bag fully ready…well, I am sure my mum has but I hadn’t looked at it…

No, I hadn’t finished all the books yet…

No, I haven’t watched all the videos online about labour and delivery…

No, I am NOT MENTALLY READY!!!!

JUST NOT READY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean, the list went on as I sat there, and I thought what can I control right now and so I went for the shaving of my legs! It sounds ridiculous but that was my first step between the pains, then it was going to be a shower, then hospital bag, then wake everyone up, then call, then go to the hospital….

And I thought why now…and then I thought back and last night I really burned my fingers badly taking the garlic bread out of the oven and I felt a reaction in my body, a feeling of holding it in until I could get the oven tray to the top without dropping, and my stomach spasmed…so I was like, that reaction may have set it off…

At that moment, my burned fingers were not killing me anymore in comparison!

I was just convinced this was it…

And then suddenly the pain dulled a bit…and…it’s been a dull pain ever since really…

I had a doctors appointment this morning anyway so told her all about it and she said it could be the beginning or not be still for a little bit…she said the little monkey had dropped down to level 3 out of 5…so now I’m just stuck with dull pain, a lot of pressure, a lot of movement, and fear!

Fear.

Real FEAR!

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365 ONE: day 236…A Little Scare

Day 236: August 31st, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Tell Her About It” by Billy Joel

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog = “Pregnant Juggling”

Anything to Note =

I had a little scare today.

I was at home doing online product research again for things like electric breast pumps and breast milk storage bags….like you do!

Anyway, I was about to head out to do some shopping and meet my mum and I got a sudden sharp pain.

Sharpest pain I have had to date.

And it lasted for longer than I have had before.

And then I got another one.

And it freaked me out. Big time. I thought for a second that this was it. The beginning to something I am NOT READY for. And really scared about.

It really took my breath away. And I was home alone. And I got scared. Especially when there was a second pain so close to that first one.

I don’t know.

Bottom line is I got scared.

I haven’t had another one like that since but I’m still a little icky.

I mean, I’m a little icky at everything going on down there, in there…all the bubbles and bulges and pressure and well, anything really!

The little one inside me moves around a lot. A LOT! Doing so right now.

I don’t know.

Just all a bit scary really.

Boo.


365 ONE: day 192…Bottoms Up!

Day 192: July 18th, 2012 = COMPLETE!!!!!

Cardio was = Walking

Dance of the Day was = “Cubetronix” by Cube Guys

Improvised Acting Video I uploaded to my other blog was = “Hello!”

Anything to Note =

Yesterday, and what feels like today already, I have been quite uncomfortable in my stomach. Especially up near my ribs when I am sitting up – which is practically all day then!

I don’t know.

The little schmonkey is just moving up there or putting his feet there or his hands there or his butt – last time I had a sonogram before I left NYC the woman doing the tests told me that his head was on my right side with his hands and his feet and legs on my left side, and his butt, his little bottom, were up near my ribs it sounded like!!!!!!

Great so his bottom is up near me!! Is it his little bottom that is causing me this discomfort in my ribs then???

Get your bottom down little monkey!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bottoms in the air…clearly an Anastassiou 🙂

I am at 30 and a half weeks now – which is CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s weird now as the “bubbling” that’s going on is still constant but it sometimes feels super weird – weirder than normal – like the little schmonkey is moving – literally moving his whole self or something as it’s quite pronounced and bubbly-er!! Like sometimes there’s a bunch in a row!

STRANGE!!

Sometimes it makes me go “Whoah!!” out loud and freaks me out a bit!!!!! Or a lot!!!!!!

Let’s face it – it freaks me out A LOT!!